value myself

i feel blesed in so many ways. i have great kids,a job,education,and in most circles(and i will say this) i am considered very good looking. however, my lack of self esteem, keeps me from trying harder at my job or believe i am worth dating. i think people look at me and think i am confident,and unapproachable when i am really insecure. i drink at nite when i am alone and i feel sorry for myself…i am such a loser