go on a date in 2008

So it did not happen last year. I think I am going to finally have a date and get married when I am 90 years old with false teeth and blue hair. My wonderful 95 year old husband will want to carry me over the threshold. He won’t be able to stand the weight of carrying me as his bones will be fragile, he will fall break his hip, I will be dropped to the floor and suffer from a hematoma and then I will truly never have sex again. Yikes!!!!!!!

Ok, I thought this was looking good, however I don’t believe it is doing well anymore. Oh well such is life.

I have been working with my clients worker for the past three months. I have come to the Realization that he is first of all a very kind man compasionate man, secondly lets face it, he is H…O…T…..HOT!! Anyway, I digress, when we were closing out the clients records, he said we should go out to lunch, then the next day he suggested we continue to talk….ANYWAY….ROCK ON!!! I don’t know if anything will come of it, but what an amazing thought. I hope, I really want to do this goal….Wish me luck!

I have a gentalman in line, however, I can’t tell if he is dating someone. I have stricked rules against that type of situation. I am too afraid to come out and ask him many of the questions because I really don’t want to feel the regection. I can not see why someone like him would be intrested in a person like me, he is just beautiful….We will see. If not, it is ok he is still wonderful to talk to.

Ok, actually I am working on this, I really doubt this will happen, however I am trying. Just one date with no strings attached would accomplish this goal. I am excited because I am actually intrested in someone for the first time in four years. My husband left me four years ago with a 2 day old baby and a 17 mth old. I actually think me being intrested in someone is theraputic, it is helping me heal and understand that there are more men than just my former husband. I don’t think the man I am intrested in is actually intrested and if he is, he is not the one, but I don’t need him to be, I need him to be a first step. I know, I am pathetic, I just need to get on with my life.

Ok, so I am pathetic. I haven’t had a date since my husband left me four years ago. I have been so busy with my kids, school, and feeling too sorry for myself to do anything. Not just any date will do, I want a real date and I want to feel good about myself. kind of like I earned it not just a sympathy date. Who knows, we will see, I just want to have one very innocent date.