lose myself

I hate when I think too much. In the end it usually leaves me with tears streaming down my face, and an acheing heart. So I try to avoid thinking as much as possible, because usually when I start thinking it can start out good, then end terribely…

It seems I am always losing myself in something…dut there are more ways than one to lose yourself. I hate it when I feel I have no control over the things I do…and some times I don’t have a choice, and the people under my protection get hurt. And that is when I have to remember my place and my job…