have a flat stomach

Ok so I’ve abandoned this goal for like 7months or so now.
I think I’ve put on 2.5kg during that process and it’s hitting me so hard right now cos I just realised.
The more I try to limit my food intake the MORE I THINK ABOUT FOOD.
For this past week I’ve been hungry constantly, and it’s not like I don’t eat or that I’ve been having extra energy output! I am really scared because I’m constantly hungry! What is wrong??!!

I haven’t been doing any exercises either, I used to do about half an hr each day but lately I just lost all motivation.

Came across this comment, on this site today actually, by an user called rubyred1001
” Believe you are worth eating healthy because you have 1 body and you have to keep it clean and healthy – you need to care about yourself before anyone else and know that your worth it.

Exercise does not have to mean going to the gym – it can be just getting on the floor and doing crunches while you watch your favorite TV show

It can be dancing in your room and working up a sweat

It can be doing leg lifts while blow drying your hair.

We put so much pressure on ourselves – drop the pressure – drop think you need to lose weight. Close your eyes and imagine yourself as you know you can be (be realistic) and carry that image with you – it will make you feel lighter, move faster and feel smaller and have more energy.

Believe in yourself and don’t feel bad about how you look – it only makes you feel worse, eat more, exercise less and gain weight.

Your are beautiful.”

It’s actually motivating and helpful! I guess the problem is me believing that I am worthless and ugly. I think I need to overcome the goal to love myself before I can achieve this one.

I took my wisdom out just two hours ago, and it’s bleeding so much. Luckily it doesn’t hurt but my face is puffed up. I don’t think I will eat today because I don’t want to swallow blood and infect my gums or whatever. The good thing is that my stomach is empty and it’s rather flat at the moment. It makes me soooo happy to see it flat without having to contract my abdomen muscles and suck in my belly. Note to self: try not to eat for a few days and see how it goes.

I’ve attempted at doing sit ups everyday. On a good day I do sit ups, side crunches, and various other exercises for half an hour to one hour. On a bad day I don’t do anything. =P I wonder if it’s bad to exercise at night because that’s when I remember to do my exercises (that’s before I go to sleep). My goal is to do at least 60 situps everyday for the next two months. But I don’t think that has any effect on my body at all, maybe it’s not the quantity but the quality aye?

Hmms, I wish I would go on a diet but life is just too busy and I have other things to think about than what kind of foods I’m not supposed to eat or how much. So yes. I read some article that 95% of Australian women had gone on a diet before and still the population is getting fatter. HAHA. I secretly wish that I will have anorexia but I know that’s impossible for a person like me.

I was talking to one of my workmates today and I couldn’t help but noticing how pretty and skinny she is! And mind you she is a mother aged 24+, I feel kind of ashamed walking next to her when I know that she has a better body than me – a 17 yr old girl. So yea, I want a flat stomach by next year, which is just one month and 2 days away. I highly doubt that I will make it, but.. we’ll see hey?