clean more

But I am making huge efforts at reforming this bad habit!

I need to start tossing some stuff. I can part with this stuff- it isn’t essential to my well-being. And I’m finding new stuff to replace my old stuff- just like I’m finding new feelings to replace old feelings- and new things to replace old things.

Some of those old things are hard to let go of. Cleaning- just doesn’t mean cleaning my apartment- it means cleaning myself. Cleansing myself. Stopping myself and thinking about what I want to do. To free myself from life’s chaos and to break through to a clear conscious and beautiful home/environment.

one final attempt at this for 15 minutes right now. if i see progress- then it’s on!

so i saw this segment where suze orman is helping people realize why they’re in so much debt. she told her peeps that it’s obvious how a person’s financial health is, because usually the environment surrounding them is similar. people who don’t know how to use money usually don’t know how to take care of what money can buy.

so i’ve been trying to clean up after myself more.

I’m learning that a lot of cleaning has to do with throwing away and forgiving mistakes. When I peered into my closet, I felt an unfamiliar wet and cold feeling- looking down, I think realized I had stepped into my roommate’s dog’s droppings. So- I had to get a bag to put the droppings in, scrub the floor with soap, and continue on with the tasks in my room. It seems non-ending, but I guess cleaning never stops. I also threw away a ton of stuff- stuff really hard for me to throw away like lecture notes and language notes. But if I’m not going to use it, what use does it serve in my life? None. In the garbage you go!

This cleaning business is complicated for someone like myself wiht a huge time-crunch. Any pointers?