get a boyfriend

I had one boyfriend for 8 months (thats the longest relationship I ever had) , although it ended tragically, I learned a lot about relationships.
Im glad for the things this person taught me, good and bad, he came as a great teacher into my life.
I always dreamed HIM to teach me this kind of stuff, and he did.
But.. like always, when the lesson is learned and assimilated is time for the teacher to move on.

Anyway, I have found another great guy, or should I say the best guy by far that I ever met? REALLY! He has done so many wonderful things for me.
Im greatful for him. So yes he is my boyfriend and we been together for 1 month..

Its been 13 days since I’ve been chating with the love of my life. We chat everyday minimun 5 hrs. so we go to bed at 4am almost daily, completely nuts right? So we get from 3 to 5 hrs of sleep.
We have spoke once on skype, and his voice still makes me weak at the knees! It seems like the 6 years were more like 6 hours.
He is still the same 15 y/o , NOTHING of his personality has changed at all! and his looks have only got better! But my feelings – the butterflies in my stomach still remain there.
Its amazing how we can talk and talk and talk, it doesnt matter if its in person or 6 years after in MSN and Skype, we have so many things in common, even tho we come from different continents. We connect in such a deep way that its like we’ve spent all these years together. Each day we dedicate songs to each other and talk about how fascinated we are with oneanother.
It might sound crazy but Im very sure of having a connection with him, this is because I used to dream that we were speaking on the phone or in the park , and he would tell me things of his life and now that Im actually speaking with him, he tells me exact the same things I dreamt!. Of course I havent told him anything about my dreams, he might thing Im crazy…
Recently he was asking me if I even dream of him, and if I did, what were the dreams about, I said I didnt remember any…

Anyway, hopefully he is coming for new year, and we shall be together again but this time is for ever (I hope)

So 6 years ago I lost the love of my life, I had a huge massive depression for the first 3 years, and then tried to move on… but only found bad guys, or guys that only wanned to be my firends (you can check my previous post for more about the subject)
I thought my love life was cursed.. and in fact it was, until today.
Yes, recently I began chatting with a guy from the same country that the love of my life (wishing that he would be as nice and save me) and this internet guy, felt my sorrow, and how sad I was, and told me he was gonna help me to find him.. and I thought he was saying that just to be nice. But in fact he did.
And now I found the love of my life, the guy i have 6 years missing like a crazy , is again into my life. I never thought it was going to happen. Now we have to begin from 0, is like getting to know each other again, Im enjoying it tho..
If everything goes fine I will fly to his country and stay with him for holidays.
I hope this time we can make it right, because I swear I love this guy, if my love has lasted 6 years without even seeing him or knowing if he is alive then.. I guess this is REAL love. It seems to be mutual.. I really hope it is!

I just analized this subject, and yes having a boyfriend is not for me.
I suppose there’s people (like me) that doesnt know how create a meaningful romantic relationship. I always end up being the friend, as I see how other girls get the real deal. I even get stalked, but not loved.
Yeah I know lots of guys and all of them say “im good looking, funny, and sweet” but none wants anything serious with me. They just invite me out and pay everything, introduce me to their close friends, come and have dinner with my family, pick me up , drive me home, cook for me, go clubbing….
In fact its not that bad … :)

My “get together” with Mr.Perfect was just that… Perfect. I introduce him to some relatives and they just loved him. The guy is SO polite. Is funny, with other guys I have to try very hard to make things go well with him everything comes along… is just like I can sit and be myself and be sure Im not going to ruin it all. Is so perfect on the sentimental side but theres no physical contact, well I’ve only seen him twice in my life, so I cant be expecting for more than that, in fact Im lucky he wanted to come all the way to here just to see me a 2nd time. But he doesnt give any sign that he likes me… And I dont even picture him liking me… I dont know is very weird. Is like meeting someone you know is great on the inside and would make ur world a better place but at the same time seeing him unreachable even if hes right there in front of u listening closely to everything ur saying and being a true gentleman.
On the other hand some friends has set me up to meet with another guy to show me around and take me to some places. I was supposed to have called him like 1 week ago, and I didnt so the guy was like wondering why I havent called him yet since he wants to meet me. I have right now in front of me the paper with his name and number…. Im really confused I dont know what Im supposed to do, if just stick around with MR Perfect and wait until he tells me he likes me or not, or keep meeting and hanging with other guys (you know just in case).
I think I will just dial those numbers…

I wrote about him before, saying that he is a gentleman and all that. Yeah this guy is what all my friends (even my mother) call “A catch”. Not only the guy is polite, but he has an excellent academic record!, and he is not boring at all.And then comes the good looks….. In conclusion is the type of guy that u dont even fancy because its just too much in one person.
After our 1st “get together” (it wasnt a date) where he introduced me to all of his friends , I wasn’t expecting (AT ALL) that there was going to be a 2nd time for us, is like when someone is soooo nice to u and you have the little suspect is just to not hurt your feelings.
So then he tells me “I was expecting an invitation to dinner or atleast for an ice cream” , so I was impressed,but yes I proceeded to invite him to dinner at my house after he came back from his holidays in his motherland. Of course I was sure once he came back from eastern europe he wouldnt even remember me. Fast forward. The guy came back, I was so eskeptic about him wanting to see me (without his friends and the club scene) that I didnt touch the subject, , and the 1st thing he tells me about is “seeing each other again” subject.. well I dont know in his dictionary but in mine that means “I sooo wanna see u again!” specially when it takes him 2 hrs to get here!
Damn! I wouldnt even travel more than 45 min for a guy I only wanted to be friends with.
But yes it is still too soon to tell if he is interested in the romantic level, as with guys you never know

I went on a “date” with a pathetic guy, yeah the story goes like this.. the guy when he noticed we didnt clicked at all took out his cell phone and made a call, so yeah the guy TOTALLY ignored me like for 15 minutes.. Then after his long conversation with a girl (because i could hear her voice) he decided to come up with a made up story saying that his friend had a problem and that he needs to go because he is the one who’s going to solve it (the problem was SO big that I could hear he laughing about it)... Then he has the guts to say “I will call you later on to find something else we could do together” at that point I couldnt contain the cynical laugh and then said “hmmm.. well…. ok” wich could be easily translated to “hey boy u know theres not going to be a phone call or a next time” Well he left me at my own luck in the middle of the an empty street… I was shocked but took it with a little of sarcasm and just began to walk with a the sarcastic smile on my face.

the next bus was coming in about 2 hrs, to be honest I always had a bad feeling about that guy but he convinced me to go out with him. Well while Im standing at the bus station (impressed because I was not crying or hurted)it came to me the idea of go and sit on some place and have a drink. I was short of money but after such an experience I needed to enjoy the moment, because not every day you find someone so polite as him.

So I was counting how much money I had and surprise I could afford a drink, but then I feel like Im being observed from inside the restaurant, so I think to myself “Oh no Mr. Bad Liar is now stalking me” I decided to turn around and look , it was a young guy , so I felt releived.
I went inside just to find that the guy who’s taking the orders was very nice and good looking (more attractive that the jerk). So I began speaking with him, the guy is not good with english but I dont blame him. Then I asked a drink and sit on the table to wait the 1hr and 30 min to pass. After I was relaxed, I began looking at the guy and realized that he was charming, he began to do signs to me, like letting me know he likes me or something, then at that point appeared the owner of the place, so he stopped, and I began to look out of the window and laughing because I couldnt beleive all that was happening on a sunday afternoon.
After a while the guy passed me a paper with his phone number, and the owner of the place told me that the guy invited me to eat free. That was very kind from him but I couldnt accept it, not because I wasnt hungry – cuz hell I was- but because my bus was going to leave.
So I said Good Bye and told him “I will come tomorrow” he smiled like a worldchampion and I left.

So it wasnt that bad :)

PS: I just received an SMS from him saying that his name is Edmond

I like a guy who is a gentleman! but he has this bestfriend who turns out to be a girl, and ohhhh i feel theres a catch!

So I recently began to read that book, and I know this is going to sound a little exagerated, but this book enlighted me. Yeah, now I’m 100% clear why my romantic life is B.S.
Now that I know what went wrong in the past I hope not to repeat the same mistakes in the future.. I really hope!