beat trichotillomania

I’m 17 and I’ve been pulling for over 8 years! 8 8 8 8 8 8 8 8 888888888888888….It’s driving me insane! I wish I could stop, I don’t understand. why am I so different? no one understands what it’s like they just tell me to knock it off! Leave your hair alone! They don’t get it they think I’m crazy and maybe I think I’m crazy too.

I’ve been doing it on and off for 7 years. At first I didn’t know why I did it and I think people thought I was crazy. Once I started, I couldn’t stop. I kept telling myself, “Stop it! You’re making your hair ugly!” and then I told myself, “I can’t stop! It just feels so good.” I’ve threatened to cut all my hair off and tons of other stuff to try to get myself to quit, but nothing works. Once I quit for about 10 months, but then I picked it up again. I’ve felt bald almost my whole life. I always had to wear hats when I went places because it looked really bad, and its always been really hard to do my hair up all fancy and stuff cuz theres always short hairs poking out and little bald spots showing. It’s stupid. After years and years I think I’ve finally accepted that I’m never going to get rid of it. But knowing how bad I once wanted to..I guess it’s still worth a shot.