Make the most of my 20's

I began my account on 43thing when I was 20 and looking on the changes I’ve made as a person is pretty awesome. I would say that so far I’ve learned to be much more open-minded, and that I’m simply never going to know everything. I’m happy with where I am, and still ready for more transformation. These may not be my wildest years as I had originally guessed they would be, but they are becoming some of my more formative ones.

I’ve been 21 for 4 days now and it’s no different. However I have been out of town with my mom so I’m not really celebrating my legalness.
I really don’t want making the most of my 20’s to be a party goal though. I want to get to know myself inside and out. I want to be more stable and figure a few things out before I start my family and continue the confusion.

This worries me so much. I’m stuck in a 9-5 job where I sit in front of a computer all day. I’m worried about going to bed on time and I sleep any extra time I have. I’m going to be 21 in August. Why am I so boring?! This was suppose to be the best summer of my life. I want to act 20 years old and take chances and make mistakes. I want to have fun! Are those days over? Did I use it all up before I turn 21?