be nicer

Getting happy something I’m also doing well on, helps with this one. Just yesterday I had the thought, “I used to have this real reputation for being an asshole. I just don’t feel that anymore.” What’s funny is I then had to re-assess my commitment to Sparkle Motion but I remembered this post where I’m all, “I care about art too much,” which out of context is just hilarious. All that to say, seems like in my experience it seemed that being an asshole is was required to be a doer. Now, in a nice convergence of happy, content, immediate, and secure, I have more peace about whatever is to come. I’m in a bit of a restructuring phase, doing a lot of planning, but when the time comes there will be lots of winning without having to plow anyone over on the way. So there.

So effing frustrated.

It’s going to be a weird day all around today methinks.

I just spent all kinds of money lately and I’m about to [edit edit edit]

[It’s odd that due to not being open/public with some information, this seems to be about something it is not]

but i feel like i’m doing much better at this http://www.43things.com/things/view/236195 and this http://www.43things.com/things/view/1022256 so i don’t know.

I think I might have made some progress on this one lately, particularly due to some processing that occurred this week.

Also, I think I started this goal, and now 403 people are doing it, and 33 people have done it!

There’s a voice on the phone
telling what had happened
some kind of confusion
more like a disaster
and it wondered how you were left unaffected
but you had no knowledge
all the chemicals covered you
and so a jury was formed
as more liquor was poured
there’s no need for conviction
they’re not thirsting for justice
but I slept with the lies
I keep inside my head
I found out I was guilty
I found out I was guilty
but I won’t be around for the sentencing
cause I’m leaving
on the next airplane

and though I know that my actions are impossible to justify
they seem adequate to fill up my time
and if I could talk to myself like I was someone else
then maybe I could take your advice
and I wouldn’t act like such an asshole all the time

http://www.sing365.com/music/Lyric.nsf/Going-for-the-Gold-lyrics-Bright-Eyes/22A820037C5D3E3748256C7D000A8655