become a Fulbright scholar

So, I’m applying to become a fulbright in the Czech Republic, something which I am alternately very thrilled and ambivalent about. (I’m not sure I’m using ambivalent correctly- doesn’t it technically mean torn in two ways? Can I be alternately something and torn in two ways, as assumedly the two ways are thrilled and not thrilled.) I think that the Fulbright application is designed so that one is forced to contribute some essential parts of the soul to it; this insures that even the ambivalent will accept the grant out of relief that their soul has not been rejected. The other good thing about this grant is that I don’t find out until May or June, making it impossible for me to create other plans. This allows me to sidestep the crises of my fellow seniors, who actually have to make choices.

Also, I really love the Bohemian Lion Rampant.