fulfill my mission as indigo adult

just recently i started to change. at first they were little things like eating habits and the things i was into but it has gotten to a point were: my dreams are coming true, i have like this “electrical current” in me, i feel, for a lack of a better word, more stupid. i fear i am becoming a crystal being. not that there is anything wrong with being crystal exept i do not want to go through the whole transition just yet. i want to remain an indigo at least until i am 22 but i don’t think i’ll make it that old being indigo. crystals tend to be loving and forgiving, which is the exact opposite of who i am, and i want to keep my indigo “warrior” spirit. i feel being crystal will make me weak and vulnerable.