get over my social anxiety

Lately this anxiety really has made my life difficult. I’m restless, but can’t go out. It drives me nuts.
I know booze helps, but I can’t go on boozing every day. I’m not going to lie: I lovelove drinking because it is the only thing that takes away my constant anxiety, but I really only drink when I go out to party (I only drink in excess, har har). There’s no way I’m going to turn a drunk because of this, ermm, problem so I know when to stop.
I was thinking that maybe I should go to some sort of therapy, but I dunno. I’m not going to kill myself anytime soon, so I don’t know if it’s necessary then. It sounds bad, but I don’t really value myself that high.

I’m not doing too well. I, however, make myself to go in social situations almost every day (well, I really have no choice, because I need to go to my classes) and I do not like it, but I still do it. Yay.

This is killing me. While I’m quite antisocial or more nicely said, independent (I don’t really need or want that many people around me), I’d be happy if I still could function in social situations. I just get stuck. I see people around me as hostile and unfriendly wherever I go. I think they’re watching and scrutinising my every move. It’s not always this bad, but when I’m alone and feeling down, it is.
I think this is to do with my low self esteem and the fact that I don’t really like myself. But if I was that bad a person that I think I am, wouldn’t I be stoned to death by now by the public? I’m not a bad person. I’m nice. I’m nice. Yes I am. I am. And people don’t look at me, I act perfectly normal in social situations, I’m just being schizophrenic.
This isn’t killing me, I, myself, am, because I won’t let go and leave myself be. I scrutinise my every move and worry too much and put myself down and hate myself way too much. Stop doing it!