compile a 100-things-about-me list

To hear [her] describe it, I had next to no friends because I intimidated people by being so exceptional. Not true. I had next to no friends because I wasn’t friendly.
Suzanne Collins (Mockingjay)

64. It’s probably the second one.

63. I like to use rules and values, but honestly, oftentimes I’m just scared.

61. I’ve never been the kind to ever let my feelings show. And I thought that being strong meant never losing my self control. (Keith Urban)

62. I guess I can’t really say I don’t know what I want anymore. I think I know what I want, but it doesn’t quite match up with who I want to be, where I want to be, the kind of people I want around me. It seems so impossible that it will all work out, but then the past seems pretty impossible too.

59. I do my best to text and type in correct grammar with correct spelling, and to an extent, I judge people who don’t.

60. I’m not all that concerned about what other people think about me, only the implications of that. I don’t mind someone thinking I’m annoying, as long as I wouldn’t find myself annoying. So when someone tells me “You’re (insert adjective), because (insert instance),” I consider. And I usually consider the implications for a while. Something will remind me of it and I’ll evaluate that situation. I make a temporary ruling, then lather, rinse, repeat.

I take it as advice, and that really the only thing I can do.

I firmly believe that people only have a problem with other people because they see something of themselves in another. And it’s not the person they have the problem with, or the supposed thing they’re doing, but it reminds them of what they wish they didn’t do.

58. I am always surprised when people remember me, or people I don’t think know my name do. And it always makes me happy when they do, particularly someone I remember particularly well, even if I haven’t seen them in a few years.

57. I don’t know how to take compliments. And not so much criticism either. I’m really not comfortable being the center of attention at all.

56. I think that guys with accents, particularly British, Australian, and French, are sexy.

53. I’m not as much like my sister as I thought I was. (#11) But that’s okay, I’m not bad as I am.

54. I’ll often spend a good half hour to an hour writing a long response to a statement, such as a facebook status, and decide not to post it because I’m not sure how it will be received.

55. I don’t know what I’m hoping to become or what I’m hoping to accomplish but I keep planning for the future and waiting for it to become clear.

51. I’m more concerned with what people don’t think of me than what they do think of me. It’s not that I have a particular someone that I want to be, just that there are people in my mind that I know I am not, or don’t want to be known as.

52. If I do some sort of arts and crafts project, and for some reason end up with paint or sharpie or something of the like all over my arms and hands, I honestly couldn’t care less, and I don’t try to cover it up. It nets me several weird looks each time it happens.

48. I’m not a planning person, but I am a planning person. If I decide I want to do something I don’t want to plan to do it in the future. I want to get off my ass and start it, right then and there. However, in the absence of being able to start right away, I like planning how to do that something. I enjoy sitting down and making a plan for how it’s going to happen, how I can make it happen.

49. Sometimes I start to read things I think I want to read, but halfway through I realize I don’t like it at all. But I still finish reading it, mostly because I want to have read it, to know the whole story, whether in the end I wish I had never read it at all or not.

50. I am quite good at talking bullshit. I can spin a somewhat logical argument for basically anything I know a bit about. This is a technique I employ for the vast majority of what I call “stupid” school projects.