Live the life I dream of

excerpts from eat pray love from Elizabeth Gilbert pg 272

“I keep remembering one of my Guru’s teachings about happiness. She says that people universally tend to think happiness is a stroke of luck, something that will maybe descend upon you like fine weather if you’re fortunate enough. But that’s not how happiness works. Happiness is a consequence of personal effort. You fight for it ,strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it, you must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it. If you don’t, you will leak away your innate contentment. It’s easy enough to pray when you’re in distress but conitnuing to pray even when your crisis has passes is like a sealing process, helping your soul hold tight to its good attainments.”

1) Dress the way i dream
2) Have a good base of friends
3) Grow my business
4) Travel anytime anywhere
5) Try something new on a regular basis
6) Give back to my parents

Gosh!!! doesnt the dream say it all. I dream alot im a girl with big dreams but what i dream is nothing to the reality im living is this what im destined for!!!! No risks same old same old, i see the life i have now and to be honest its not what i want and neither do i see myself continuing on this path.

But what is the life i dream of anyway? what do i want? I know what i dont want
1) Live from paycheck to paycheck

2) A life without fun -what exactly is fun? party? well….. that works for sometime and anyway been there done that and you know what parting is the same shit just on different days

3) Live a mundane life – i know some of these ar vague but seriously
work, sleep , maybe throw in some exercise, party occassionaly
but whats my bottomline i want to have some fun memories. I want to accomplish something What i have no real idea? OK scratch that i do have an idea build my business and expand.

I feel like im stuck in someone elses life just passing time. What i want to do is bust out of the closet and LIVE!!!.