don't let other people change my positive attitude

I thought my positivity was going really well – but my cousins told me differently. She picked me up on some negative things I’d been saying about myself in an online chat. We chatted for about 2 hours, she typing away in her Dutch and broken English and me in English (can’t write in Dutch but I can read it). We’ve only just met, she lives in Suriname and I live in Australia, but she really took me to task and started me thinking more about the things I have been thinking and saying abut myself of late. I feel better for that chat.

So much so that my attitude in life is really beginning to change for the better. I have had fears that have been caused by a negative upbringing, now these fears are slowly melting away.

A good strong prayer life, a supportive husband, and knowing that my children are doing well and doing me proud, all play a role in keeping me feeling positive in life.

A few good achievements of my own help too – like doing well in my speech and drama exams over the last few years.

I’ve let other people listen to my song and so far I’ve had nothing but positive comments made about it. My poetry seems to go down well. I know people like my singing too.

I feel good about these things in my life.

And I’m allowing the negative situations to just bounce right off me and I’m trying to turn around any negativity that I can.

I love life

not long to go now and I’m flying off to see my relos for the first time ever – seeing some again too after many years. It will be my first overseas trip, it’s quite a scarey yet also thrilling prospect.

Can wait to see how my plans pan out.

I have plans for my future. Plans that I’ve been told could never happen. Well I’m sorry to say that those people are wrong. OK – so I’m 46 and the best years of my life have passed me by in one deep dark bog. But now I’m out of that bog and making strides towards what I’ve always wanted to do. I’m loving my new freedom. I’m already a long way on the road there.

I’ve been working on my staying positive attitude. I admit to deliberately avoid negative people who sap your positive energy. I do however want to start re-establishing a friendship with one of these negative people if I can. I wonder if I’m really ready to open myself to having my positivity compromised? I guess I’ll take it slowly. This friend needs to learn to be more positive herself because her young family are suffering from her present attitude to life. I’m glad I’ve met some really positive people on the net, they are worth a million.

Have you ever been so excited about something – but when you tell someone in your family or tell a friend about it they show no interest. It can put quite a damper on your enthusiasm. But for me it’s not a problem anymore. I have my interests and I’m working on them. I’m meeting people with similar interests and it makes life more worth while. Some of my interests I can pursue on my own and it’s not important if no one else shares the experience. I see the results of my work and I’m content