February Bootcamp 2012: Play and Productivity!

Its been too hard to keep up with the bootcamp entries for me this month, particularly since I have not been feeling well. So I think that’s it for me but I want to send out some final good thoughts to everyone else pursuing their goals.

All the best.

Productivity
-IRT section almost complete – only thing I puttered on this weekend and I did so while watching romantic comedies.

Play
-Movies! make recovery go easier
-Smores cookies
-A swim to try to loosen up the muscles
-Had a brunch that was supposed to be play but quickly escalated to something else entirely. Where one of the attendees mentioned her discomfort about our upcoming living situation (it looks like we’ll be sharing a house for a part of the summer). She noted that she did not want to share the closet with me and then offered to string a line up in the basement for my clothes, then suggested that I bring less clothes. I told her I was angered by both suggestions and felt unwelcome before even arriving – to which her response was to burst into tears. Ridiculous!
Had to get it out as its likely causing me to tense my muscles and aggravate my injury.
Im thinking that this friendship has run its course. Not all friends are forever and this one is not healthy, its anxiety provoking and feels like work. I will finish our last project and gently cut the cord.

Productivity
-Assessment, Group & Individual Clients. Did not feel rushed to start the report b/c I have extra time now. Yay to assertively asking for what I need.

Play
-Some yoga stretches, a massage, downloaded books, and more hot water bottle. The massage therapist says the right side has almost returned to normal and the left shoulder remains tight.
Still fighting the impatience of slow healing but this time I won’t ignore the signals.

Productivity
So, def feeling good about setting healthy limits. I def. did not feel like I was giving up, it felt right and the response from my supervisor was very positive. So last day with one of the client group, last meeting, and the a feeling of a weight lifting.
In terms of health, still feeling lightheaded and tense though I can at least do stretches now. Massage scheduled for tommorow; I hope it helps.

Play
-Just lots of rest with the hot water bottle, watching tv, and visiting the doc for a massage note.

Im thinking this is going to be a long period of recovery…..

Reduced placement hours starting next week!!

Self Care :)

Productivity
-Finished org review of draft 2
-ED report & stats in from last month

I’ve decided that Im going to ask for a reduction in my responsibilities in my placement. I don’t think my health should be taken lightly, if I take it lightly, others will too. I don’t mean exaggerate the issues but admit that I need boundaries to work and that it really has been too much. I’ve never asked for this before so this will be tough for me.

Play
-More hot water bottle application while watching Alice (Kick-ass sci-fi reworking of Alice in Wonderland)
-Sketching (2 new sketches – pencil and charcoal)
-Some yoga stretches
-Actually, had the energy to head out – walked in the mall and had a latte

Productivity
-Read/revised slash methods section
-Finished first draft of ncrtp poster

Play
-Resting lots with my hot water bottle by my side
-Reading on my new e-reader
-Painted my cabinet with primer
-Chatted with N, Z, J – good convos with alot to think about
-Watched forgetting sarah marshell (Russell Brand is lol!), and Easy A (Emma Stone is A+)

Starting to be able to move and feel more human, quite a relief. Also, trying to re-think my situation. This is a wake-up call to my stress level and strong need for self-care. Gotta let it percolate.

So my start to Feb has been pretty rough….
I began Feb 1 st with a trip to the ER for vision difficulties and sudden head pressure. I was def. freaked by the vision piece but assumed I am too young to be experiencing a stroke. After a wait, diagnosis was tension induced migraine with auras. All my muscles had decided to seize at once. Scary!
I was put on 4 days of home rest, with anti-inflammatory meds, and a massage was recommended. Sigh.

Feb 2
Went to the massage, my back was on fire all day afterwards, like I had been beaten. Tried to do nothing but that didnt work out so well. I didn’t realize how little time I spend actually just sitting around, I did the laundry, cleaned my bedroom, and made alot of food. Then I slept for 10 hours.

So Im going to try to go with the theme of the bootcamp but perhaps play is going to be a bigger piece…. and wrestling with feeling sorry for myself for getting sick when I need to be well…