publish a book

I have the worst case of writer’s block I think I’ve ever had. Usually when I have writer’s block I can still write something crappy. I’m literally just staring at the computer screen every time I try. It’s so frustrating.

I’m currently analyzing my book like I was in senior year AP English and had to write a ten page paper on it. It’s really helping me to make more sense out of it, figure out what’s wrong with it/what’s missing, and to make sure that it has some deeper “themes” even though I didn’t put them there on purpose. I’m pretty sure (contrary to what they teach you in school) that nobody does that. Except for William Golding.

I’m starting to think that my novel isn’t any good. I can’t help thinking that some parts are stupid or don’t make any sense. I think any publisher would just throw it back in my face. And I know the first chapter is good, but I think the rest won’t stand up to it and any readers I have will be disappointed.

I dunno…maybe I just need a break from it. I’ve gotten too used to it.

I have writer’s block yet again. Usually doing yoga helps me write but it’s not doing the trick anymore. Any tips?

All I can really write is dialogue right now because it tends to be easier for me, but that’s not even going very well. And I just figured out that an entire chapter of my novel is a bit pointless because nothing really happens.

Also, the person I was emailing my chapters to hasn’t been answering me at all. So I’m worried that either I didn’t type her email address right, or that something is wrong. Maybe the fact that I’m so worried about it is affecting my writing. I tend to not be able to write when I’m stressed out.

I’ve been working on the same novel since I was 14. Almost 5 years now. My writing was so bad back then. I’ve rewritten it twice and now I’m editing it again, and having some people who actually know what they’re doing read it. Hopefully I’ll get it published soon. I hope I hope…