create the soundtrack to my life

Hmm it’s been so long since I’ve worked on this that I think I need to start over…

i don’t feel so well.
i thought that you should know
i thought that you should know
that i don’t feel so well
i thought that you should know
before you fall

i don’t call them back
i thought that you should know
i thought that you should know
that i don’t call them back
i thought that you should know
before you fall

i saw it begin to dawn on us both
and somehow it wasn’t suprising
and so you’re prepairing to swear every oath
but all the while i’m realizing

i can’t love you there
i thought that you should know
i thought that you should know
that i can’t love you there
i thought that you should know
before you fall

i saw it begin to dawn on us both
and somehow it wasn’t suprising
and so you’re prepairing to swear every oath
but all the while i’m realizing

i can’t love you there
i thought that you should know
i thought that you should know
that i can’t love you there
i thought that you should know
before you fall

She’s taking her time making up the reasons
To justify all the hurt inside
Guess she knows from the smiles and the look in their eyes
Everyone’s got a theory about the bitter one

They’re saying
Mama never loved her much
And daddy never keeps in touch
That’s why she shies away from human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she’s waiting for the right kind of pilot
To come (and she’ll say to him)
She’s saying

I would fly you to the moon and back
If you’ll be if you’ll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby

She can’t remember a time
When she felt needed
If love was red then she was colour-blind
All her friends they’ve been tried for treason
And crimes that were never defined
She’s saying
Love is like a barren place
And reaching out for human faith is
Is like a journey I just don’t have a map for
So baby gonna take a dive and push the shift to overdrive
Send a signal that she’s hanging all her hopes on the stars
(What a pleasant dream) just saying

I would fly you to the moon and back
If you’ll be if you’ll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby

Mamma never loved her much
And daddy never keeps in touch
That’s why she shies away from human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she’s waiting for the right kind of pilot
To come (and she’ll say to him)
She’s saying

I would fly you to the moon and back
If you’ll be if you’ll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that’s how it’s got to be
It’s coming down to nothing more than apathy
I’d rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who’s still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I’m in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She’s on your mind
She’s on your mind

Let’s rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that’s disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I’m in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She’s on your mind
She’s on your mind

Everyone knows I’m in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She’s on your mind
She’s on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I’m becoming the part that don’t last
I’m losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won’t let it go down till we torch it ourselves

And everyone knows I’m in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She’s on your mind
She’s on your mind

Everyone knows
She’s on your mind
Everyone knows I’m in over my head
I’m in over my head
I’m in over…

Everyone knows I’m in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She’s on your mind
She’s on your mind

I have wandered far and wide
for something real something to die for
but I have found you and you do not see
all that is me all that is true

I am more than you will see,
I am more than you will need,
I am more than you will see,
more than wanted

as you float the flimsy surface
you should know life lies beneath it
don’t pretend you feel what I feel for you
live illusion and I am real

I am more than you will see,
I am more than you will need,
I am more than you will see,
more than wanted

I know, I know you like the way
you feel when I play
I know, I know you don’t really
hear what I say
I know, I know you are waiting
for something to raid
I know, I know you wish you could be
more than you say

I have wandered far and wide
for something real something to die for
but I have found you and you do not see
all that is me all that is true and

I am more than you will see,
I am more than you will need,
I am more than you will see,
more than wanted

I am more than you will see,
I am more than you will need,
I am more than you will see,
more than wanted

more than you’ll love, more than you’ll hate,
more than you’ll hold, more than wanted
more than you’ll crave, more than you’ll cherish,
more than you’ll have, more than wanted

I am such a sucker
And I’m always the last to know
My insides are copper
And I’d kill to make them gold
Conversation got me here: another night alone in the city
So make my bed the grave and shovel dirt onto my sheets

Every friend we ever had in common
I will sever the tie, sever the tie with you
You can thank your lucky stars
That everything I wish for will never come true

When you go, I will forget everything about you
When you go, I will forget everything about you

I’ve seen sinking ships go down with more grace than you

Turn this up I’ll tune you out
Another night alone in the city, yeah
Fake it like you matter-that’s a lie we can both keep, ohh

Every friend we ever had in common
I will sever the tie, sever the tie with you
You can thank your lucky stars
That everything I wish for will never come true

When you go, I will forget everything about you
When you go, I will forget everything about you

I will forget when you go
I will forget everything about you when you go
I will forget everything about you

Every friend we ever had in common
I will sever the tie, sever the tie with you
You can thank your lucky stars
That everything I wish for will never come true

It’s true, we’re all a little insane
but it’s so clear
now that I’m unchained

Fear is only in our minds
taking over all the time
Fear is only in our minds
but it’s taking over all the time

You poor sweet innocent thing
dry your eyes and testify
you know you live to break me – don’t deny
sweet sacrifice

One day I’m gonna forget your name
and one sweet day
you’re gonna drown in my lost pain

Fear is only in our minds
taking over all the time
fear is only in our minds
but it’s taking over all the time

You poor sweet innocent thing
dry your eyes and testify
and oh you love to hate me don’t you, honey?
I’m your sacrifice

(I dream in darkness
I sleep to die
erase the silence
erase my life
our burning ashes
blacken the day
a world of nothingness
blow me away)

Do you wonder why you hate?
are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?

You poor sweet innocent thing
dry your eyes and testify
you know you live to break me – don’t deny
sweet sacrifice

(ok, so my name isn’t Serena…however, it is my pseudonym in someone’s book, by no choice of my own…and I just connect with this song)

So what, life’s rough
You should get over yourself
Like everyone else and enjoy
The girls and the boys
And everything in between
Serena, in an effort to avoid
The things that annoy you
You hide-far, far away
And life just passes you by

Are you gonna give up
Are you gonna give out
Ain’t that a shame
You’ve got no one to blame
But your conscience
If it doesn’t make sense
I know that only too well
So tell me
Did it happen one day
When the day that you faced
Wasn’t happening
It just didn’t bring
Anything more,
Anything more than despair

(Serena)
(Serena)

Do you remember, morning would come
And just like a child filled with the sun
And the hours never seemed long
Where have those days gone?
Beyond us…
Or so you would believe
But I can’t agree, those illusions
Will you ever get through them
And find the diamond,
Find the diamond inside

(Serena)
(Serena)
(Serena)

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I thought it’d be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

She falls apart,
By herself
No one’s there to talk or understand
Feels the sting,
Dries her eyes
Finds herself opens the door and sighs
People see right through you
Everyone who knew you well
Falls apart, might as well
Day is long and nothing is wasted

Runaway, runaway
Wanna hold on to you but you’re going away
Runaway, runaway
Wanna hold you tomorrow but you’re leaving today

You walk along,
By yourself
There’s no sound nothing’s changing
They’ve gone away,
Left you there
Emptiness is nothing you can share
All those words that hurt you
More than you will let it show
Comes apart,
By yourself
All is well and everything’s wasted

Runaway, runaway
Wanna hold on to you but you’re going away
Runaway, runaway
Wanna hold you tomorrow but you’re leaving today

Sometimes I feel around
It scares me some I can’t be down
All this time to be on my own
In is out to be again
This time will waste another friend
I know where they will
Know where they’ll runaway

She’s falls apart,
No one there
Hold her hand it seems to disappear
Falls apart might as well
Day is long and nothing is wasted

Runaway, runaway
Wanna hold on to you but you’re going away
Runaway, runaway
Wanna hold you tomorrow but you’re leaving today
Runaway runaway
Hold on to you but you’re going away
But you’re leaving today
But you’re leaving today