be in love

But I will always find love one way or the other.

First I should find it within myself.

... especially if you did not marry your soulmate.

The love of my life became a lazy, thoughtless brat.

I don’t know how long I can stand this.

My hubby always makes me laugh. I’m so happy to have married him. He may not be perfect but he’s a lot better than other men and he truly loves me so much!

When you hurt someone you love… They will love you less.

Piggy and I had been arguing in the past few weeks. It kills the love. He has a problem with communicating. He seems to be at a loss for words that is why he resorts to anger.

I even told him that he has to see a psychiatrist because he has a lot of unresolved childhood issues. He is insecure.

I will try to be more more patient with him. I still love him.

I can’t believe the one I love so much HANGED UP ON ME ON THE PHONE. Why is that? Some attitude problem or sort? Doesn’t he want to talk it out? I was honest to tell him that it was rude of him to have done that. Surprisingly, he didn’t even say “sorry”!

He was annoyed by what I’ve been telling him to write me. He thinks that I was nagging him. He even sarcastically told me that he’s going to write me today (even if he hasn’t slept for a day).

He threatened me that HE WILL NOT CALL ME ANYMORE.

Fine. I should learn to let go.

From now on I will NEVER bother telling him that I missed his letters or he should communicate to me often.

FEELS LIKE BREAKING UP. I really feel bad.

My friend, Joel, is right. There comes to a point where you’d get tired expecting. You just have to let it go.

He won’t answer my emails and text messages… He’s a complete bore whenever we chat. He’s rude sometimes and does not pay attention. I think he has taken things for granted. He doesn’t appreciate me anymore. Or maybe he’s fallen out of love.

It hurts.

I was walking alone in a dim street and thought about “my love.” He’s not perfect, I know. But it could get pretty frustrating. He is not that intellectually endowed where he could relate to the stories I’ve been telling him like current world affairs, my thoughts about diminishing species of the planet, etc. He can’t communicate effectively that is also why we had our fights and arguments.

He’s not my dream guy but he loves me so much. I’m not complaining really. It’s just not the fairy-tale love that I have been brainwashed to believe in.

... At the mall. He’s still handsome as he was.

But I was too shy (and I was with my boyfriend). Haha!

is such a wonderful feeling! :)