Post my thoughts

couldn’t seem to find the ” get in shape ” goal in my list here. anyway, I have lost 35 – 36 lbs already when I weighed last month which is good. I haven’t weighed lately though but I’m sure I’m sure I’m still losing weight w/ my exercise and diet. People tell me, I don’t have to lose more weight because I do not look fat. But I know, I still have fats in my belly and back and arms. I do not have six packs because I have abdominal fats. and this, people can not understand. they’d think I would look to skinny and unhealthy. But I am doing this, losing more weight , for my own health. Not because I do not look fat for them, I have to stop losing weight.That shouldn’t be anyone’s basis. According to the chart, I am still overweight. I want to achieve my ideal bodyweight and not other people’s judgement of what’s ideal for me.

It feels good to be able to wear clothes better. It feels good to look presentable. It feels lighter and healthier.

Last night I saw an old friend’s transformation after losing weight. She looks so happy and healthy. I’m sure her family is as happy as her. I am happy for her too. She inspired me to lose more weight.

Times, like this, i think of my past. It affords me to revisit people and places. Sometimes i remember the feelings i had at a particular event, place , even person. And of course, the sad question “what if” makes things more complicated.. And i start to think of what-could-have-beens. A story leads to another then to another. The cycle never sleeps and it keeps my mind active at the small hours. Hence, i couldnot sleep.

But today is different. I took a sleeping pill. Haha

Good night insomniacs!

Times, like this, i think of my past. It affords me to revisit people and places. Sometimes i remember the feelings i had at a particular event, place , even person. And of course, the sad question “what if” makes things more complicated.. And i start to think of what-could-have-beens. A story leads to another then to another. The cycle never sleeps and it keeps my mind active at the small hours. Hence, i couldnot sleep.

But today is different. I took a sleeping pill. Haha

Good night insomniacs!

I am trying to collect myself here.

This morning I had an argument with 2 friends and I got really pissed off. Whose fault? definitely not mine. And what I can not understand is how can these mature people not accept their mistakes. And would that be enough to delete me on Facebook? What a pathetic mentality they possess? Is this how mature people handle this?

I rest my case. As the cliche goes “the only permanent thing in this world is change”,so we will all then accept change.

I’ve always wanted to be different.

I know I am not exceptional but still I want to be one of a kind. In a culture of conformity where people obey the norms of the society, I live my own values.

Mediocre I maybe, but I know there’s good in me that I want to cultivate.

If vampires can be good, then why can’t I be?

Today, I’ll put a bookmark in my book of life. If I am it’s writer, then I want my story to be an insipiration to my reader. I may have been bad, but I will struggle to be good and pleasing to the people around me. And to myself. And most especially to God.

just thought it’t the right time to make some changes. some call it resolutions. I do call it nothing. It is something one would do to improve one’s self. Or, to most of us, do the right thing.

it’s already 2011. And I know I have to start this year right. The past years I’ve been a happy go lucky kind of guy which means I’ve been passive with doing decisions for my self. This ofcourse no doubt led me to where I am right now, which i kinda like. But i guess there are times that I know I have to take control and act upon my own will. Not that I’m saying I will be obsessive compulsive this year. What I mean is there are some aspects in life that need my own intervention – unlike before when I used to think that whatever will be will be.

I want to do the right thing. So I am closing one chapter of my life – the one that was dedicated to the-one-who-must-not-be-named.

Tonight I will sleep with a broken heart.

And tomorrow a new chapter begins.

When you party, you just have to go with the flow. Loosen up , switch on the party mood, crank up the volume. Dance. Drink. Loosen up , feel the music and dance ‘til you get tired. And dance some more.

I’m writing this for my friends who went with me to this party who did nothing but complain. I don’t want to be mean coz u guys are my friends, but, please if it’s not really your thing, then just say no. That I would understand better. Rather than going and then spoiling everything.

Temper, temper, temper. You got me there.

I’m in the driver’s seat so I am in control. I choose my passengers and I choose which ways to take.

I am turning 26 tomorrow. And I am not in the mood to celebrate.

I was disappointed last night with the turnout of the grey cup when the roughriders won already and then lose. Ditto with my road test, I passed already and then I failed. I call that Roughrider moment! But as old Tom say ” What can we do? It’s done. ” There is wisdom in this. Firstly, that things could change at the last minute so don’t lose hope. Secondly, for whatever is done, it is already done. All we have to do is accept it and move on.

But I’m going round the bend that’s why I am ranting.