Post my thoughts

I was disappointed last night with the turnout of the grey cup when the roughriders won already and then lose. Ditto with my road test, I passed already and then I failed. I call that Roughrider moment! But as old Tom say ” What can we do? It’s done. ” There is wisdom in this. Firstly, that things could change at the last minute so don’t lose hope. Secondly, for whatever is done, it is already done. All we have to do is accept it and move on.

But I’m going round the bend that’s why I am ranting.

After what seems like forever, I finally talked to E. ( Or was it the other way around? )

That made my day.

It could be depressing living in this side of the world when my family and friends are far away in the other side. It’s been a constant struggle of longing. It could be cold here too. And dark.

And so that simple exhange of “how are you” was like magic. It’s like a cold water to a thirsty mouth. Or perhaps strength to the weak. Hope to the hopeless. Or power to the oppressed.

I just had a funny talk with a friend about things like this. She said it’s a different feeling. Something that puts you in harmony with everything. I said, it is orgasmic.

A friend asked me if I am already rich. I chuckled and said “no, I’m not”. I might be earning a decent salary but that doesn’t mean I am rich. I added that while money is important, it is not the most important thing to me.

I told my friend, I am more concerned on the welfare of my fellowmen especially those who have nothing. I want to be of more use – to be the best that I can be, and to use my capabilities to the fullest to be able to serve God.

This thought make me smile as I know I might have made him raised an eyebrow. Other friends will react the same too if they find out about this. I guess, it`s not in my personality. But inside me, I know this is what I want to do.

Looking back this past year, I realized I have made a big progress. Things that I am very thankful for.

But life isn’t all about reaching and living your dreams. You can have all the money in the world and still find yourself unhappy. What is success without sharing it with the people you love? It’s like an empty victory. I am reminded of a movie I watched as a young boy. It’s a story of a poor girl who dreamt of becoming a singer. She was determined to make it big and she succeeded. At the pink of her career, she suddenly quit and left the spotlight because she realized she was compromising her family for the sake of her career.
Her story inspired me and taught me to value people more than peronal achievements and even dreams.

As I think of my life, I am happy I’m not compromising lots for my career. Although I sometimes think of changing career and be of more use.

I never thought I would enjoy living in a small town that’s why I feel sad about moving to the city.

I am sad.

Been passive this past year.

I guess it’s time to update my 43things.

Now is the right time.

I had good times with my relatives here in Vancouver. It feels very comforting that I have relatives in this unfamiliar terrain.

Staying with my aunt and uncle and cousins brought back memories some 20 years ago when we were all still in the Philippines. Now Lots have changed. And yet a bigger part remained the same as i could remember.

I am ever glad for this visit! Hoping to be back for the Olympics. I hope my ‘rents could come.

Lost contact with few friends these past months. Probably because of distance and time difference. Or perhaps more. I’m thinking how easy it is for some people to forget. Me, I’ve learned to forget and most especially forgive.

To you my old friend who is turning 40 this 1st of September,hope you are doing fine. If u happen to read this, I hope this will make u smile. But I doubt it, coz u don’t even know this site exists.

Happy birthday!

I am planning to move to Regina. That would mean I have to start all over again. From scratch.

I feel sad about leaving.

But I have to do it.