experience different relationships

i’ve been in a three year relationship. i’m still in a three year relationship. before that was a 2 year relationship. before that, i was too young to date. i need to experience something different in my life…but i don’t want to let my boyfriend go. he’s the best thing i have in my life, but i don’t want to keep thinking that i’m not experiencing things. i also keep thinking about girls. i want to try it out sooo bad, but i’m deathly scared. i want to marry my current boyfriend…but then again, i want to break up with him…maybe he’ll agree to let me try a few things in confidence and i won’t be such a basketcase anymore.