I have, and am, everything I could possibly need to succeed. However, I am overridden with guilt about it and am afraid to actually reach my potential. I am so afraid of failure, that I mostly choose to not do the things I love and know I am meant to do, out of fear that I won’t complete them, or do them as well as I would have liked to. I eat myself up about it and have horrible anxiety. I know I have two choices; get things done, or get nothing done. I know I’d never forgive myself if I just sit back and do nothing for myself and my life. I KNOW I need to get things done. I need to not freeze up and shut down and, instead, turn my fear into excitement. I want to be passionate about my actions and not fear if my actions are right or wrong… not fear if I will do them well, or poorly- just get out there and DO them! It’s pathetic how I analyze it all. Months- years – go by without me doing what I had meant to do all along. This is something I hope to change within the next few months. It’s a big personality issue to change in a short amount of time, but I am setting my intention to do so.
I will no longer let life overwhelm me. Instead, I will take control over my life and be the writer of my own life story… the director of my own life movie. I will get things done without shutting down because of my fears of not living up to my standards/my potential/my ideal. I will not have expectations, but instead choose to simply live.
oh… AND ENJOY IT!
