Be the best Partner I can be

I ran across these quotes from the Dalai Lama, which describe pretty well my beliefs about love.

Take in account that great love and great achievment involve great risk

Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon

So this goes hand in hand with my other goal, and let go of fear.

I am calling friends and getting support from them. It is helping as are the posts from wonderful people like Crazyforoilpaint.

The pain of losing my sweetie is easing now. Its been about a month. I still miss her, still want her, still don’t understand why my love and my committment to her isn’t enough. Still don’t understand why she, or anyone would turn away from that. I have a hunch and theory about it but it would be some consolation to hear it from her. But of course, that will never happen. Not ever. I see now that I am still bitter about it too. Maybe that will pass with more time.
I went on a couple of dates this last week, thinking that it might help me get my mind off of Dora. The first one was quite sad. All I could think of was how I wished the woman on the other side of the table was Dora. The 2nd one was a little better but I still was wanting her to be Dora and also didn’t find any connection with her at all.

For as painful as this has been, I don’t regret going through it. I don’t believe avoiding emotional pain is a useful or helpful activity. I wouldn’t seek out pain but choose to believe that in the end I will be stronger for it.

I lost my sweetie and I am having trouble coping. I miss her so very, very much. She won’t be coming back. We both made mistakes and I am owning and taking responsibility for mine. I don’t understand why being sorry isn’t enough. I want being sorry to be enough!
I have told her I love her but that isn’t enough.

Love the woman in my life with all my heart, passionately, tenderly, respectfully, and playfully.

I will need to get married first.