Get a new job

I have decided not to get a new job for a few months. I have a lot of other projects I want to work on, including:

• become a CELTA Trainer
• substitute/ part-time teaching/ tutoring/ editing
• Oral Exam Training Coordinator for the Cambridge ESOL centre
• sell some writing?
• teach yoga?

• Research and write my Capstone
• Take French classes
• Take and pass my French oral exam

• Yoga teacher training
• Market research/ business development
• Shadowing/ volunteering?

• train for a marathon
• all of the above! :)

I believe that I will return to this goal in about 6 months.

whether I want a new job right away. If I don’t work, I can focus on my Capstone program design, my yoga and yoga teacher training, running, and writing. I can figure out what I need to move forward.

It’s very tempting. And scary!

I’m writing my resignation letter right now. Holy crap! I’m scared stiff. But I’m not backing down.

I wanted to talk to my boss about this first, but he didn’t tell me he was going to be away all week, and then the owner is here next week and I want to give him as much notice as possible so I’m writing an email.

Within two minutes, I will press send.

There’s a whole world out there, a whole life ahead of me. I can’t wait.

Looks like this other job might be possible and at about the right time! I would take a large-ish pay cut – but not as much as if I went on unemployment or went to teaching part time, both of which I’ve been considering and taking steps to survive under these circumstances, so it actually would not be as bad as my friend was thinking for me. She actually sounded like this would be quite likely for me. I’m now considering giving notice at my job for December 18, the last day before our winter holiday. I’d like to decide by the end of this month whether or not to do that. Although I’ve almost completely decided in my own head. I’ve stayed too long.

I will talk it over with my boyfriend, and my mom when she’s in Cali next week for the Yoga Crib. They are two of the strongest voices of reason in my life and I trust their advice absolutely. Then I will look long and hard into my heart at the Yoga Crib, where I’m always able to access my deepest intuition. And choose.

Yesterday was so frustrating. I just hate my job, no matter how positive I try to be. I love working with the clients, but I am so, SO frustrated with my boss, I don’t like my coworkers, I don’t like my staff, I feel the atmosphere is negative and I’m being set up for failure at every turn. I want out! I was nearly in tears again.

I’ve been actively seeking work through professional organizations, but there’s very little out there right now and the problem is that I don’t want to leave SD at the moment. In desperation, I turned to Craigslist and the best education job I could find is for a donkey caretaker: http://sandiego.craigslist.org/csd/gov/1395205598.html LOL! Well, I already work with jackasses, and at least for this job they tell you right out front that you have to deal with shit. ;-)

_{At least I still have my sense of humor.}

When I left work last night, I called a colleague at another school to see if she had heard of any jobs in the industry that might not be posted. I told her I’ll do anything: teaching, administration, a combination – and that my dream would be to find a Registrar position because it would allow me to fill a gap in my experience that is standing in my way of getting the university-based positions I wanted (working with student visas and the immigration system). It would allow me to continue working with students (which I love) but not have to manage people (which I need a break from, to figure out whether or not I want to do it again in the future).

She told me that there was a position at her school but it’s been filled. However, there’s a chance the new person might now be working out and might not be able to continue at the end of her probationary period. So I’ve missed the boat… but maybe not? I’m really hoping. Please pray for me to whatever powers you see fit!

I have better relationships at that school than I do in my company, and it would be the perfect thing for me right now.

I’m praying with all my heart.

something awful. This week I was there on Thursday already. I’m starting to get a sense of where I need to go, but I feel trapped. Maybe I’ll have some time to journal about this on the weekend. Sometimes that helps me figure things out. I’m trying to be positive and accept where I am, but this environment is so toxic. I don’t know that I can save it, or that I want to try.

Oh gosh. Those two months have gone by and I’m still paralyzed. My work situation is almost intolerable. BUT if I quit my job, I put myself in a very difficult financial position. If I stay, I can save money, continue to stay out of debt, and be more prepared to make a strong move when I’m ready.

I am staying for now, with great reluctance. But I’m trying to think outside the box. My goal on this one for September is to do research and look at other options. Also to do math. Find out if there’s any way I could still support myself without having to work here.

I loved my job once and had great company loyalty. But it’s all gone out the window now.

This goal is on hold, although I’m not ready to remove it because I want to remind myself to keep thinking about it. The job market is so tough, I haven’t gotten any responses to my applications – and other events have led me to rethink my career choices and my decision to move to a new city this year. I will wait for two months and seriously consider what it is I want to do next before deciding how to continue my pursuit of my goal. It’s clear to me that I need to leave my current job soon, but it’s not clear what to do next.