Love without fear

I figured out what this goal meant to me. I used to think it was to fall for some guy in a romantic way again, but it really isn’t. I’ve gotten some negative comments about the religious orientation of my current better half from a teacher whom I adored from a very conservative Christian highschool that I went to.

Loving without fear really is (or for me it is) about loving people for who they are, no exceptions, no condemning people to hell. I have always had friends from various walks and religious views and joke that I’m a bad protestant, because in truth I believe the core of my faith, but not the literalism and textualism that a lot of people impose on it.

Trust me, I know I’ve made some poor decisions when it comes to life choices in regards to a literal interpretation of the Bible, or an interpretation that’s accepted by the majority… I didn’t choose a path of abstinence nor do I regularly go to chuch, and I don’t agree with a lot of things written about the role of women in a family, church, or society.

Anyway, long story short. People are shortsighted and narrowminded. If God really is ultimate and pure and just… wouldn’t the fairest, most compassionate, and most complete form of grace be salvation for all, not just those who chose him, or that he chose?

At what point does this goal get taken off the list? When i fall for someone again? What am I afraid of? Getting hurt? OR you know an ex who calls you while trying to kill himself over blah blah blah.

I’ve had a lot of shitty relationships… and a lot of meaningless ones too. I’m not afraid of loving again, but I’m still really apprehensive about that “follow you to the ends of the fucking earth” love. Been there, done that. Not doing that for a while.

But… I’m so not falling for anyone for a while. Seriously. BOO HISS.

it’s not that I’m afraid to fall in love it’s that I’m concerned that things get put off because of something that comes off as love.

Loving someone as a friend is fairly easy, but getting to the level where you know your partner’s mood without having to even talk to them is something else entirely.

For fucking serious.