have a great summer

“So many people before me and as many will come after me but right now, at this moment, this is all mine, my own world…”

Suomenlinna has always been a place where I can escape from the ordinariness of daily life. I have a habit of going there around this time every year and just sit on the cliffs, let the sea breeze ruffle my hair and watch the sea spread out before me. I’ve always loved the sea, I feel at ease close to water, the sea is so restless and wild and above everything else – free. I don’t know why but I feel certain affinity with the sea, whenever I’m near water it feels right and I get this “this is where I belong” feeling.

So summer is almost over, September is just a couple of days away (where did the time go?) and it’s time to mark this goal as done. I think I did a pretty good job with this one, summer was full of activities, highs and lows, and I learnt something new about myself again. So not completely wasted three months. :)

I’ve had the best birthday ever, and the partying continues today (started on Thursday). :)

_{Just thought I’d let my subscribers know I’m still around even though I have neglected this site quite a lot lately.}

Meh, I was supposed to go to Ruisrock this year but it seems that’s not going to happen after all since none of my friends are really interested in coming with me and for some reason I don’t feel like going there all by myself. At first I was very disappointed about the turn things took, but now that I’ve had time to think about it I realise it’s not the end of the world. Most of the bands and artists I’m going to see later this summer at Ankkarock (namely Kent, HIM, Opeth and Sonata Arctica) anyway, so it’s not such a huge loss. I’m a little sad I won’t see Olavi Uusivirta, though, but since I’ve already seen him three times this spring/summer and there are a couple of gigs coming up where I’m most likely going, I think I can skip his performance in Ruisrock _{(just barely :P)}. It would have been so awesome to celebrate my birthday there though, since Ruisrock takes place from July 4th till July 6th and my birthday is just before that, in July 3rd. But oh well, at least I’ll have a long weekend to party my 20th birthday then :D (since I thought I was going to Turku, I’ve already asked Friday and Monday off from work and… well, no way I’m going to give those off days away! :D).

My uncle’s getting married this Saturday and I’m pretty excited. n_n I love every chance to dress up nicely and since I like both my uncle and his fiancée so much, I’m more than happy to celebrate their union. :) I just hope the weather will be nice, it has been raining quite a lot this week, it’d be so lovely to be able to hold the party outside. Here’s hoping it will be sunny and warm on Saturday!

I think this summer will be a great one, even though work eats most of my weekdays and there will (most likely) occur more setbacks along the way. My weekends are getting full really fast and I have quite some plans for the upcoming Saturdays and Sundays, so all’s good. And improvising is important if original plans fail for some reason. :)

I don’t know why, but I always get really inspired when I’m slightly crapulent (brilliant word, btw!) – I went drinking with friends yesterday – and I end up doing things that require either concentration or clear mind, usually both. You can imagine what it’s like, I’d want to sleep and get rid of my headache, but I can’t afford to ignore inspiration when it hits me. :D

I came up with this idea of collecting memories of this summer in one place somewhere, so that reminiscing would be easier later. So, today I decided to make a special box for Summer 2008 and the idea is very simple: I’m going to collect stuff in it, things that’ll remind me of this summer, random bits and pieces, anything and everything. :) To make more memories. And hopefully, when summer’s over, that box will be full of… just those. Memories. I want this summer to be plain awesome.

I’ve been feeling rather down the past couple of days but I think things are getting better now. Slowly, but nevertheless better. I marked possible summer plans down to my calendar today and it looks rather fine even if I say so myself – quite a lot of things to do, that’s a good thing. The downside is that I’ll most likely have to do most of them alone, seeing as my friends either aren’t interested or have no money. That’s what I fear is going to be the case, at least. But I’m tired of always having to skip things just because I don’t have any company. I’m going to do things and go to places alone if I can’t get anyone to come with me. Still, it’s a bit different to go to a different city alone than to stay in Helsinki, for instance. I’m getting more and more comfortable with Helsinki and there is so much to do here, I wouldn’t even have to go anywhere else. But what’s summer without even a little trip to somewhere else? I’m not going to go into more details about my plans yet, though, but I’ll surely write about them when/if they come true. :) I just don’t want to spend this summer at home, doing nothing, so I’m trying to fill my weekends with stuff to do as much as I can.

Last summer was quite nice, I made discoveries concerning myself, got a lot more confident and aware of myself (in a good way), opened up a bit, had new experienced, felt alive every now and then. Still, I don’t remember much about that summer, I worked most of the time and because of the nature of my job I couldn’t really do much during the week and then I just… did nothing during the weekends. I hope this summer will be different, at least I’ll have a decent job from 8 to 4, so more possibilities to do something in the evenings and weekends are naturally free. I have some tentative plans already, but I’m not going to talk about them just yet, don’t want to jinx them. ;)

Every year I wait for summer impatiently and then when it comes, it’s never as great as I had imagined. I’m going to change that this year and enjoy summer more. :)