procrastinate less

On Sunday and today I’ve been productive! I cleaned my apartment yesterday – this took me hours simply because although I have a small apartment, I’ve been living like a slob ever since I got back from my holiday… but now, now everything’s all shiny and spotless! And it feels so good. ♥

I also pampered myself a little, namely by taking a lovely, long shower, also used delicious face and body scrubs (raspberry and avocado – respectively!) and painted my nails bright red. And I exercised as well! First time in months and I felt so great afterwards. Note to self: do exercise more often, you’ll feel better and in the long run even look better. My muscles are a bit sore today though but that’s understandable and expected, to be fair.

Monday, then, (that is, today) after a long day at work, I finally took some steps and completed the first phase of a possibly life-changing undertaking. :) I thought I would be more anxious at this point but I actually feel much more tranquil. Now I can only wait and see.

Additionally, I baked some very delicious bread today: used whole wheat flour and added pumpkin seeds, parsley and sour orange >> so yummy! Recommended. :)

I’ve been rather efficient in spending money as well – my bank account does not approve, I’m sure. But I can’t wait to receive one prettypretty dress I ordered, imagine this: a pencil skirt dress, black with red dots. Hmm, can’t wait!

Life is quite good. ♥

_{oh, and do check out She & Him if you haven’t already, highly addictive ♥}

...studied.
...done the dishes more than once a day.
...dyed my hair red.
...studied some more.
...baked bread.
...downloaded Spotify.
...found out that the said program works with Last.fm, oh joy!
...felt like I haven’t studied nearly enough and the clock is ticking. :(

Now I’ll go back listening to a bit more Lily Allen and then perhaps watch a movie before going to bed.

...and I feel so energised! I’m on a roll here, it seems, because today was another day well spent. Work in the morning, grocery shopping when I got off, getting a phone call from my uncle and agreeing on going to my osteopathic therapy today, and when I got home, doing the dishes (twice!) and cooking a meal before leaving for the said therapy appointment.

Now I feel great, though quite tired because of the treatment, my uncle said that’s usually what happens. But this tiredness is the kind that just makes you want to cuddle in bed thinking happy thoughts. I like the feeling. I’m also so proud of myself for getting so much done before I had to leave, and now I have a meal ready for tomorrow, yay. :)

I think I’ve been rather efficient today! I woke up around 9:30, and felt a little indecisive in the morning, there was a risk that I wouldn’t have gotten anything done today. But then I got so bored that I got dressed and headed to the library, I was supposed to go there anyway today, and I came back home with a nice pile of books, including some Herman Hesse, D.H. Lawrence, a couple of books about Buddhism and one philosophy book. I love libraries, I could spend hours in them and carry home heaps and heaps of books.

When I got back home I did some laundry, washed the dishes and baked some bread. I also started a new book, Let the Right One In by John Ajvide Lindqvist (though I’m reading it in Finnish). In the evening I’m planning on watching a film, I bought three new ones (new to my collection) a couple of days ago, and two of them I haven’t seen before. :)

If only I got this much done each day, I wouldn’t feel like I’m just standing still and wasting my life away!

Tomorrow I am going to be productive, I’ll clean up my place, do the dishes, organise my papers and get started on designing my tattoo, because I will get one this year! And now I’ll go to bed and try to get a bit more sleep so that I’ll feel refreshed tomorrow, I’m sick of feeling so wilted lately. Tomorrow is a new day and I’ll make it a good one. :)

I have been productive this week, I’m rather proud of myself actually. I’ve called to a lot of places (a repairman, Helsinki Energy, my landlord), written two essays and my stress level is considerably lower than it was, for example, on Monday. Calling to my landlord was scary at first (she lives in Texas and doesn’t really speak Finnish – I hate calling to strangers and to have to do it in English… I felt so accomplished after that call :)) but she sounded like a nice lady. She gave me a permission to paint the walls, so hopefully we’ll go buy the paint this weekend and get things rolling, so hopefully I’ll get to move in next week, finally. :) I’m excited, can’t wait to start decorating the apartment and stuff, I have so many ideas already!

I need to start getting stuff done, I’ve neglected my open university studies almost entirely, I’m so behind on my reading and I have two essays I need to write soon. God, and then there’s the move, and I have my work as well. Have to spend less time on the Internet and just work work work on these things, to get them done. :(

I’m really just lazy, aren’t I? Why is procrastination so easy? And why do I rather laze around than do the things I’m supposed to do, because I need to do them eventually anyway? Gah.

tick-tock says the clock

Aahh, I really hate days off from work, I never get anything done and at the end of the day I feel like I have just wasted the whole day. This is frustrating, I know I would have a lot of things to do but somehow I just never do them. Why is that?

I’m actually waiting for tomorrow and going back to work, isn’t that a bit weird? And I don’t know, it almost feels like I should be doing something all the time, otherwise I’m just wasting time and life’s precious moments. I work so much better with deadlines, like if my shift started at 1 pm and I had to get something done before that, I get it done. But when there’s nothing but time on my hands, I don’t know what to do with it. So I just throw it away. How could I change this?

I’m rather proud of myself, I actually got something done in the time frame I had set for myself (and I even have time left to do other things today as well!). I just finished writing an assignment for my Literature class (a poem analysis, bleh!) and though I haven’t sent it to my teacher yet (just in case I want to make some tiny alterations to it, it isn’t due till Wednesday, after all), I’m glad I got it done now and didn’t waste the whole day doing other stuff and then starting to write it around 10 pm, cursing my stupidity. I should keep this up, and not always leave things till the last minute.

Now, off to the library and then Helsinki! :)

It’s better to have this goal like this on my list, instead of having stop procrastinating because I know I’ll never be able to banish my laziness altogether. I just need to cut it down so that I can get more things done. Basic stuff, stuff that isn’t even necessarily incredibly hard or difficult or time-consuming. Like cleaning, for example. I’ve been meaning to clean up my room for a month now but I never get around actually doing it. (I don’t even want to know how much dust there is under my bed :/) I don’t even know why it’s so hard for me to just do the things I’m supposed to do first and then laze around if I have the time.

Well, these things I really must do tomorrow and on Tuesday, must:

*clean up my room
*list all the free apartments I’ve dug up from the Internet and contact the landlords (or whatever)
*get more info about studying in Open University (first lecture on Thursday and I have no idea what’s it going to be like!) – well, this I could do on Wednesday, but better to be early

...aaand I think that was it. Must. get. things. done. starting on Monday. I’ll try, I will.