improve my relationship with my mother

to say I managed to complete this goal. I know I put it aside 4 months ago, but what a difference such a short time can make! It’s all thanks to me moving out, I think the fact that we used to see each other every day strained our relationship too much. Now that it’s just occasional, we get along very well. :) I now have the kind of relationship I always wanted with my mother – I can talk to her about daily things, laugh with her, ask for her help when I need it. I can’t talk to her about ‘deeper’ things but I never wanted that, I’m too much of a reserved person, I can’t bear to talk about my deepest pains to the people closest to me.

Still, I’m glad to have gotten this far, considering what the situation was a couple of months ago. :)

I’m giving up on this goal, things are definitely beyond saving now, I just want to move the hell away from here and cut her out of my life (temporarily, at least). I just can’t do this.

I have a terrible relationship with my mother. Actually – you can’t even call it a relationship, right now the only thing keeping us together is that we’re blood-related. I’m not sure could this situation get any worse, or have we already reached the bottom and the only way is up. What I know is that I can’t start repairing our relationship before I move away from home. Living here makes me anxious and when I get anxious I get ignorant and angry, which leads to fights with my mother. I have a bad temper and so does she, and this house just isn’t big enough for both of us.

I truly believe though that once I’m out of here, living on my own, building up my own life, our ‘relationship’ starts healing as well. It’s much easier for me to love my mother when we’re apart, being in the same house with her doesn’t work well anymore, I guess I’m growing up so fast these days. At least I’d like to have a relationship with my mother in which we can talk about ordinary stuff without fighting every two seconds.