Be in a healthy relationship

i can hardly move forward, my past relationship i thought was going to be my last, everything seemed so perfect. but i was blind to the truth of what everything truly was. i want to be in a relationship..but it just doesn’t seem like its going to happen for me. but if i do ever happen to get into another relationship, i wanna be in one where i won’t be destroying myself to make someone elso happy.. i want someone who truly cares about me and vice versa