stop lying

i’m trying, was doing good for a while, but i told some big lies the other night… i felt bad… i don’t know why i lie like i do its stupid..

i’m not doing too good… on this.. i even have to ask myself if i’m even trying… i don’t seem to be accomplishing any of my goals… i really wanna quit lying… i hate it because its not me… i don’t wanna be someone i’m not and thats what i’m making myself out to be… i don’t even understand why i lie about somethings.. i mean its not like i lie about huge things, i just tell lies here and there to make myself more interesting or keep my butt outta trouble… like last night… haha… but its gotta stop.. i really have to make this shit stop its stupid..

blah… not working.. i actaully think i’ve been lying more.. which really sucks and makes me feel bad. well i guess tomorrow is a new day and a fresh start

I really have a bad problem with lying. I’ve told so many lies its hard to keep up with them all. And i find myself having to tell more lies to cover up the old ones. I’m tired of lying. I lie to make myself sound more interesting, to make my life seem similar to my friends lives. But honestly my life is nothing like theirs. Its time for me to accpect my life the way it is. So after i lie to get myself out of my current lies (haha weird i know) i plan to stop lying. I’m tired of lying to myself and to others. They are not seeing the real me when i lie. When i lie i bury myself under these facades and lose myself, i want to find myself and be happy with who i am.