motivate myself

Trying to shake of this depression and make some coherent decisions.

A I will apply for that job this week
B I will apply for that programme
C I will look into volunteering if I don’t get short listed
for that job.
D I will contact agencies and ask whether they will consider me
given my qualifications.

Then I will come back here and review my progress in the next four weeks.

There. Coherent decisions made upon some research and reflective thinking. I can come back here for reference if I start to doubt or second guess my decisions again.

I definitely motivated myself today: shopping, exercise, working on my course, cooking. But I can do so muh more! It’s part of my self motivation to actually believe this and keep having days like this as the norm and adding more creative and personally fulfilling activities to the mix.

As James Brown said ‘you don’t work…you don’t eat’, it’s as simple as that. I hate to go back to work this week but if I don’t how will I fund my big plans?

I just need to think like this, all the work that I will be doing will enable me to pay for all the things that I want, whatever I want. Each working day = One step closer to my plans for change, personal progression and fun.

(1) If I dont start to pull my weight my life will stay the same year after year as it has done.

(2) I wont get the things I have wanted to do since I was 19 done: Getting an article published, driving, travelling etc

(3) I will be a waste of a person, just a ball of potential energy but nothing more I am only young once I need to make the most of myself- my looks, my energy, my creativity

(4) I will continue to bump into people who dont want me to succeed when I least expect it looking like I’m not succeeding, even if I am.

(5) I need to get out of the slump Im in because everybody around me has more or less left me behind and forgotten about me. I need to forget about them too and not spend time on facebook watching other people live their lives through smiling glossy photographs with tropical back drops and get on with fulfilling my own.