overcome my social anxiety

It’s taken me years to get to where I am today, but I’m totally comfortable with either being by myself or being in a room full of strangers.

I’m still quiet and reserved at times, but that’s just a part of my personality. Of course, I have moments where I’m totally judgmental, but I’ve learned to just not care anymore and just go with the flow. I think I still have some issues with being an overall approachable person, but I’ve taken huge steps forward in the last year and I’m just really glad that I’m not socially awkward around people anymore.

Today was the first day of classes at the University that I transferred into. So in a sense, it was freshmen year all over again. I figured that commuting to school would isolate me more, but I’ve found that it’s an even balance (so far). I actually kind of wish I had the funds to live on-campus.

I was able to meet a few new people at lecture, and was comfortable with approaching people in the sidewalk. I guess it’s mostly due to the fact that a good percentage of the people I’ve met today were either first-year students or transfer students as well. But I’ve definitely progressed as compared to my first day at my previous University.

Hopefully, involving myself with the student newspaper will also help me along the way. Whatever it takes.

I cannot, for the life of me, just walk up to some random stranger and start talking to them. When I was much younger, I always had a smile on my face and was willing to get to know anyone and everyone. Nowadays, by nature, I isolate myself, thinking ‘maybe someone will approach me’. It’s not laziness or snobbery, just sudden hesitation. All the time.