get my life in order

I drink too much, I smoke too much, I do too many drugs. I had surgery this morning for even more biopsies because my doctor thinks I have a cancer, I have uncontrolled Type I diabetes. I dont want to give myself a pity party about some health problems I’m having, because I’m doing too much damage on my own right now to think there was any way possible I wouldn’t be having any other problems. I just don’t know what to do about it.