be thankful

Well last night I was almost making myself sick with worrying about things. It was just because of a few things and people that are confusing for me, and it was starting to feel like those few things were keeping and were GOING to keep me down and away from my goals and dreams. What a bunch of bullcrap. I’m not sure how I realized it before going to bed, but once I did I even went to bad joyously.

Trying to make things better in your life shouldn’t mean you focus on yourself, or on the things that could be better too much! Eventually the more you think about things, the bigger they become. Your brain believes whatever you tell it…

I’m sitting on a bed in my own apartment, using my laptop, two things I did not have a year ago. These things are simple, but so amazing when you stop to really think about how cool they are!

I’m listening to Steely Dan’s ‘Deacon Blues’ on the laptop. A sweet, sexy, soulful song. The speakers are producing good sound. That is pretty amazing, that we have found ways to record and reproduce music, not to mention through these laptop speakers.

My girlfriend is returning from Japan this week. I can’t wait but this month has been so good, just to become more comfortable with my own solitude and accept it. It really is a pretty neat thing, just to have a life and know that any idea you can wake up and have control over your basic motor functions. As cool as it would be to drive a robot or a big machine, isn’t that what we do with our muscles every day? I think it’s pretty amazing that we have the power to move our bodies wherever we want, and to co-ordinate our brain’s wishes with them. Just think about people who can’t move their bodies or have mental deficiencies hindering their basic wishes.

Yes, I am very thankful today. I could make up reasons until I was blue in the face, but I might then start being thankful for color. :)