eBear is doing 39 things including…

stop rushing and enjoy the process

8 cheers


eBear has written 5 entries about this goal

i don't know how to accomplish this

at all.

i want what i want, when i want it.

which means NOW, dammit.

again with the cheer monkey???

Man!!! I’m sitting here writing my guts out, waiting for the cheers I’ve received today to appear in my counter so I can pass them out again…and nothing. I’m getting frustrated because I can’t hand out cheers like I’d like to.

Maybe this is my cosmic sign that it’s okay for me to just be and sit and think about ME today. Maybe this is the Universal Spirit’s way of forcing me to sloooooooooowwwww down.

I’m not sure why I’m always rushing. I don’t actually get anywhere good; I rarely – if ever – finish projects I start. I just get so bored so quickly. Like reading the paper. I started to today, but then stopped when I finished one section, and just couldn’t be bothered to look through the stack for the next section that I had wanted to read. I mean, really…how lazy can one person be??

I am at least happy that I am not being too hard on myself tonight for not accomplishing anything today. I’ll probably go around like mad tonight with putting things away, doing laundry, packing for the weekend, etc. I’m definitely more of a night person.

I think I said this before, but I need to figure out a way of motivating myself to complete all the little niggly tasks I hate during the day – paperwork being the biggest one.



finding this hard to do lately.

REALLY hard.

i am currently frustrated about the slow pace of my weight loss, my financial situation, my changing friendships, and the time it’s taking for FB and I to work Us out.

Yes, I know I will be happier in the end for taking the time to accomplish all these things. BUT.

I guess I’m feeling really freaked out tonight because FB asked me if I wanted to go on vacation down to Mexico next winter, and naturally I said yes. He said, “Even if we aren’t sorted by then, we can just go as friends.” I don’t want to wait a year or more for him to get his head straight.

stepping outside of myself

So I was getting frustrated today when I’d log into this site, hoping to have some more cheers to give away, and see if anyone had “checked up” on me….and no one had. Not one cheer until about 10pm tonight. I was really ticked off…and then I had a brainwave:

I says to myself, “Self, isn’t one of your goals to ‘stop rushing and enjoy the process’?”

“Yes, Self, it is. Why do you ask?”

“Well, Self; it seems to me that you should heed your own advice, no?”



I am forever rushing through things, dying to get to the finish. Although whether I end up there or not is another matter entirely. I generally get bored less than half-way through with all the steps, and I quit. I have boxes of half-finished projects EVERYWHERE.

I need to figure out a way to reward or motivate myself to finish things. I do like the feeling of finishing things, I love the sense of accomplishment….so why don’t I ever want to complete things? Am I scared of losing them? Losing the process? Or just scared of the process?


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