stop taking things so personally

how to go about overcoming this.

A client of mine – fine, a client I saw twice in a row – called and wanted to book in with another therapist, “Just to try out different ones”. That’s fine, I understand wanting to try everyone out to see which one you like the best. So the coworker I like saw him today. And rebooked with her for next week.

And now I’m sitting here in tears because I give EVERYTHING to these people. I generally give my clients a good 20 minutes more than I charge them for. And for some reason, it’s always MY clients who want to try out other therapists.

I’m a good therapist, I kick fuckin’ ass.

So why don’t I believe it? Why can’t I believe in myself? Why do I feel like such a failure when this happens?

Especially this weekend. I was convinced that I was going to get an earful from a few people, and I didn’t. Not one mention, actually.

I prepare myself for battle with all people, at all times. I hate that I feel like I have to do this.

I need to figure out a way around this.

I’m pissed off at Scotiabank for holding a large amount of CASH I deposited last night. Umm…hello? Its cash. There is NO NEED to hold it for 6 business days to make sure it “clears”. Cash doesn’t clear. Cash just is.

I hate the world today, and often get convinced that everyone and everything is against me. I know I need to change this.

It starts here.

Directed at my coworker for taking a client who should have been booked with me for herself. I take things WAY too personally. I’m pissed off and angry, and I don’t want to be here now.