Live in the moment

I’m really working on this and let me say, some times the moment is a really, really hard moment.

The thing is to live in the moment even when that moment is very painful. I’ve seen that some times there’s a bit of grace to help you experience the pain.
It was a hard choice to put Noona to sleep (if only he were only asleep and would wake) – the doctor gave me something in that moment that helped me when I felt vunerable and sad and lost.

I stole that line from a Kate Bush song because it came to mind in Barbados last week. It was absolutely beautiful and there were so many wonderful things to do and see and people to meet that I had to be aware of being in that moment. I didn’t want to spend my vacation rushing from one activity to another, I wanted to go slow and just enjoy it.

I’ve gotten better on focusing on “now” rather than what might or might not happen in the future. Rather than living in my place and thinking of what I would do if….now I think of what I want to do now, because there may never be an “if”. The most important thing I’ve realized is that I am not worried about not having something I thought I needed to have – I have a stellar life right now, just as it is. I can just focus on what is now and enjoy it rather than rushing into the next moment, adventure, experience etc. All that will be there and I won’t have to sacrific anything for those experiences.
I used to spend a lot of time on “the future” and I realize that the future is right now.

I have moments when I can completely be settled in that moment. But this usually occurs when I’m at home – when I can just enjoy my space and appreciate the things and people in my life.
I want to be able to live in the moment more and in other environments and with others rather than just alone at home.