love my body

since I last my last entry on this goal and I am actually making progress on this goal!

I have been wearing baggy clothes since I was about 14 years old. And then I was still relatively thin. The last time I wore a tank top was when I was 18. I still wore an overshirt but it was usually unbuttoned. But I stopped doing that when I got super self-conscious.

In the last month I have actually started feeling good about myself and the way I look. I started wearing makeup again (for myself because I wanted to), I started wearing clothes that weren’t as baggy, I actually purchased and wore a v-neck fitted sweater (normally I don’t wear anything even slightly low-cut) and I started wearing tank tops with unbuttoned over shirts again.

All my co-workers have said they have noticed a HUGE difference in me since I first started a month ago. They even said that I am carrying myself straighter and taller.

Last week I realized that my clothes were becoming too loose. I have not done anything different (with the exception of some more walking) and suddenly weight is just coming off. I am currently buying clothes that are 2 almost 3 sizes smaller then I was wearing.

I’m still very large. But I’m so much happier and I’m really starting to FINALLY love myself and see the positive in my body and features.

I hope everyone else is doing well =)

For as long as I can remember I’ve been at war with my own body. But this needs to stop. Yes, I am full figured. Yes, I am a large woman. But I can be large and still love my body. Besides, how I can truly love myself and embrace myself (other goals of mine) if I hate my body. So my body needs work. Who’s doesn’t? My body is still beautiful. Even with the extra weight and some rolls and the like. But that can all be changed. And it will probably be easier to change if I start loving my body and stop hating everything about it.