Become a real vampire

hello..i am not asking you to change me..and it’s up to you if you wanna help..i feel lost..i feel different..and i do have psychic abilities like my dreams would warn me of some catastrophic incidents..that would come true after a few days or weeks..i dont have anywhere else to go..i am in crossroads..i want to be one..i want it..i used to be a good kid..a good son..a good husband..ang a good father..but my wife left me and took away our son with her..i want to give my life a new definition..a reason to fight for what i believe in..and i know..deep in my heart..that i want this..contact me at my email.. squallleonhart1213@yahoo.com..to end my pain..only you or real vampire could end my sufferings