Tonight, sitting in Barcelona Spain, I´m irritated and cranky.
Sometimes, I have zero patience. Traveling in a group is wearing on me. Two weekends from now I´m going shopping in Florence ALONE just because it´s driving me crazy. I´m always waiting on someone. I hate making people wait on me and rarely do for very long. I don´t understand why others can´t have the same consideration most of the time.
I read a quote a few months ago when I was looking for inspiration as far as patience goes. To paraphrase it said something like patience is not weakness, it´s concentrated strength… And that couldn´t be more true to me. It takes a lot of energy for me to be patient.
I know, really, it´s probably just learning to concentrate on the right things. I´m pretty good at daydreaming when I´m bored, but sometimes I just want to say, ´Okay, Erin needs to spend some time on herself.´ My example is that today, all I wanted to do was look for clothes. Buy a couple of short sleeved shirts since I didn´t bring any with me, and search for a dress, maybe a skirt. But you know what I did? I waited on one of my friends as she insisted on going into jewelry store after jewelry store to buy nothing. It also resulted in me buying nothing. I was just… irritated.
I don´t typically argue or fight with people, particularly friends. I´m a very chill person about stuff. But you can only walk on me so many times before I lose it. I just… want to be treated with the same respect. It makes me so angry when I have to do something that´s never returned.
sigh So… here I sit wondering why I can´t be more patient with people, particularly the people I´m traveling with right now. Is it my fault for not speaking up before I´m bothered or is it theirs for not recognizing my patience with them and abusing it? I don´t know…
