I feel so fidgety! I’m on self-actualization overload! I’m either going to explode or take a nap!
::ahem:: ok. Well, neither of those things happened (yet). I’m going to take up one of the many blank books I made this year and begin the process of journaling this 4-Day Win thing. I decided to read through the book first, which I have done; one of the things that rang truest with me was her thoughts on the word “should.” I realized that I attach “should” or “have to” to everything I do – including things that I want to do – and therefore create stress and guilt around everything. “I have to get healthy.” “I should practice the banjo.” “I have to get my act together in my art.” “I should go play Frisbee with P.” “I should call my friend.” . . .etc. and so on. As a result, most things in my life become grim tasks. Why should this be? Anyway, I’ve been trying to change my mental semantics (although I do intend to begin at the beginning of the book, and will do this more formally when I get to that chapter).
I’ve had headaches the last few days; I seem to be clenching my jaw a lot lately.
And now, I think it would be nice to go for a walk with my dear dog. I don’t have to – I could just let him out back and let him run around, and I have no obligations to walk – but I know it will clear my head, and make my dog happy.
