♥♥

_{“Have faith in both of us
And keep room in your heart for two”}

Juho and I have been together for over nine months now and he has become one of the most important and dearest people in my life. I wish there were proper words to describe all of this, us, but I can’t find any, not really. I just know that
he is it, this is it.
I love him so much and I intend to keep on loving him ‘til the end of my days, if the world will allow that. I won’t worry about our future, because it does seem so very bright and good.

I want to support and help him in every way that I can, whatever he chooses to do in his life. He knows this and I also know that he’ll do the same for me. He’s got my back. He’s ever so loving and caring, I just adore him.
Some time ago he told me that he feels that we’ve gone through & covered so many new things in this relationship, things that he hadn’t ever gone through in his previous relationships (not even in the one that lasted for more than 3 years) and this is one of the reasons why he feels so sure about us. That we are really right for each other. I feel this way, too. I could say that he completes me, but that’s sort of a cliché and it also sounds a bit funny. I’d say that people are from the beginning more or less complete already, other people just back us up, nourishing us in so many ways and creating a sort of a safety net of love, support and friendship.

We’ve experienced our first… bumps on the road, you might call it. Nothing huge, but big enough to see that we can truly solve things together and that we in fact communicate really well. We’ll keep on getting stronger and stronger the further we go. I have a lot of faith in us, I think we’ll be more than just fine and we’ll go a long way together. Hopefully all the way. :) I’m ready to take on both the good and the bad days with him (because I’m also sure that the good days will most definitely outweigh the bad ones – just look at our track record! nine months and not a single, real fight yet!).
I also look forward to finding out more and more about him, discovering how his wonderful mind truly works and how he sees the world and everything. Juho actually has this nice idea of people in relationships being each other’s “spare brains” and I like it. I think we already ~complement each other nicely and it will be a pleasure to watch us grow and become an even greater team.

I suppose I could finally reveal the “big news” (mentioned here): in late August, Juho asked me to move in with him. And I naturally agreed. This will probably happen in the beginning of 2010, because first we need to wait for Juho’s flatmate to move out of the apartment (he’s looking for a flat with his girlfriend, but they don’t seem to be too active in their search, rawr). My brains and my fingers have been itching with decoration ideas ever since. :D Can’t wait to pack my things and start putting together our home. I have a feeling that I will somehow flourish once we are living together, I feel that it will suit me (and us) really well.

It’s like he makes my whole body smile. And no one makes me laugh like he does. ♥

“Juho has accepted your invitation to “love and be loved”.”
Ain’t that just so darn cute! ♥ :D

Juho and I went through my list yesterday and it ended up taking us three hours to be finished with it. And after those three hours of talking I was feeling a lot better. ♥ It was a very good talk indeed.
We both feel that we have done incredibly well so far in our relationship, especially when it comes to communication. We can be open with each other, we can talk about things easily and we find solutions together. We can be ourselves, completely. I’m really proud of us, actually. And I’m especially happy and grateful about all of this, it makes me feel so good to know that I have someone who I can count on like this. Someone who listens to me, comforts me and helps me in so many ways. Someone great to share my life with.
We are on the same line, side by side. Hand in hand.
I think I actually wore him out with all the talking; you see, afterwards he just fell asleep while resting his head on my lap. It was so cute that I had to take a photo with my webcam. :3

Felt like being a bit repetitive here again, because from time to time, a girl just has to praise her love:
I can hardly believe how lucky I am to have met my darling Juho, to have him in my life, to love him oh so much and to be loved back in an equal amount. He is truly unmatched, no one compares to him – I seriously know what real love is now. I can’t wait to see what adventures the future has in store for us, but in the meantime I’m more than satisfied in enjoying the present moment.
^{I wonder where all this love even fits inside my body! My heart has already been full of love for months, I guess this immense love must be spreading to other parts of my body as we speak. I hope I never run out of space for it!}

Juho and I have now been together for half a year and I’ve pretty much had the best time of my life. He keeps making me happier and happier, in addition to being more and more in love, each passing day. ♥♥ I wish I could find words beautiful enough to describe what I feel for him, but there are none – I just adore him. Every single day. For a long time to come.

I could easily mark this goal as done because of all the love around me, the love I give and receive, the love I share with so many people. But this is something I want to keep on my list forever, because Love really is one of the most important things in my life. I cherish it and I want to be reminded of it, how blessed I really am to have such a wonderful, loving family, such great friends and such an extraordinary boyfriend. They’re my circle, they’re my safety net, they’re my light, they’re my everything. ♥ ♥ ♥

And a special note about my darling Juho.
We’ve been together for a bit over four months now, we got to celebrate our four month anniversary in France and it was fabulous. (Photo from our swimming trip by the Mediterranean Sea, on June 1st.) There are no real words for how I feel about him, he’s just so special and perfect. I could try to describe this, him, everything, but this can’t be explained, not fully. It’s just love, the utmost greatest and purest love I’ve ever felt for a man before. He truly is the greatest guy I’ve ever known, I really mean it. He just keeps making me so happy and excited about him, there really are no “flaws” in him. He keeps doing everything right. I realize that he must be flawed, because he is after all only a human, but that doesn’t bother me. We are all flawed and I’m certain that when his possible flaws will surface, I will come to love them just as much as I love him.
I’ve stumbled across some old entries of mine, from times when I dated other guys and those entries have really made me understand just how precious Juho is. I’ve said that those other guys had made me happy before, that I had liked them a lot, that they had been good to me. But I can see how “wrong” I was – those feelings were nothing compared to this. I was not always very well treated, I could say that all of my ex’s have hurt me (perhaps unintentionally), but Juho has not done even one thing wrong. He always makes me feel good, he’s always there for me, he does such cute things for me. He’s the best, honestly. ♥ I couldn’t be happier and I couldn’t have asked for anyone greater than him.

People are actually placing bets about what our first fight will be about! LMAO!

I had such a nice time last weekend with my friends
and then Juho came back from his little trip on Sunday evening and ever since I’ve been pretty much bursting with joy and happiness. I am a generally happy person, but right now I’m just bouncing off clouds and my mood is amusing even myself. I just can’t help it, being so in love is making me all giddy and bubbly, heh.
And I just can’t explain how truly good, how immensely right it feels to be with and near him. ♥ I’ve never felt this great before.

Tomorrow is our two month anniversary. :)

♥
^{Ain’t he cute or what. n__n}

My feelings for him get stronger every day. He is so very precious to me, I truly hope that the instincts that are whispering “he’s the one” are right. (It’s quite likely that they are.)

And yes, Juho totally charmed my family last weekend. I wasn’t surprised, hehee.

I missed Juho quite a lot on my trip, but only in a good way. None of that “buhuu, I’m alone, woe” stuff, only feelings like “I can’t wait to see him again, whee!” It was all very positive and sweet. I was excited every time that I got a chance to talk to him. :)
During the last couple of days of the trip, while I was on my way to the airport(s), I was really looking forward to seeing him again and sometimes wanted time to go by faster, especially in Amsterdam when I was waiting for my Helsinki flight, heh.
Then I got to Helsinki, noticed that I could make it to the earlier bus after all and got all excited. Only two more hours to see my darling! After I got my backpack I ran straight to the bathroom, then continued quickly outside to the bus area.
And then I noticed someone walking next to me, very close to me. I didn’t see well since I had a hood on so I just made a sort of a move to pass this person, but when I continued to walk, he came closer again. I thought “what on earth, who is coming on to me like this” and turned to face the person.

And Juho was standing there, with a flower pot in his hand! (And not just a flower pot, there were actual flowers in there too! :D)
I couldn’t believe he was there, I was just yelling “whaaaaaat” etc and hugging him like a crazy person! :D Such a sneaky little thing he is, telling me he’d meet me at the bus station in Tampere, when he was planning to come meet me at the airport already. It was such a lovely surprise, he’s so awesome. And I was so so happy to see him again, to kiss and hug him again, just be close to him again.

♥

(He had already seen me in the arrivals hall inside the airport, but I hadn’t noticed him while I hurried to the bathroom. And then he had waited for me outside the bathroom, but again I totally missed him. :’D)

He’s the greatest and I love him to bits. n___n
^{Okay, not really to bits, I wish to keep him in one piece.}

We’re going to my mum’s together this weekend. It’ll be interesting, it’s the first time ever that my family has met a boyfriend of mine. :D I’m very intrigued to see how it goes as I’ve never done this before, heh. I’m sure he’ll charm them all~ ;) And Juho doesn’t seem to be nervous at all, he really is remarkable! Hehee.