listen to my body

It’s about a year on since my last entry. I’m taking this really seriously now and since I have, I’ve begun to feel so much better. Better diet, more exercise, ended dysfunctional relationship, am seeing a Chinese herbalist, eating strange brews!

I woke up this morning and decided that no matter how yuck I feel I need to make the most of my days and maybe it will make me feel better. So…no more not doing stuff because I feel exhausted or sick.

I feel so fucking sick all the time and it makes me angry….grrr. I try to be positive and I get excited about thinking about all the things I want to achieve, but my health lets me down and I hate that it is like this. It is SO SO furstrating. I have something called antinuclear antibodies, which means that your immune system is shitty. Has anyone else got this? If so, any advice on how to feel healthy?

For the last couple of days I have been feeling really sick….nauseous and an almost poisoned feeling. It keeps me up at night which means I can’t do the things I want to do during the day because I’m feel so tired and yuck. I’m fed up with this…arraahhh!

I’ve decided that this is my most important goal. I’ve got a poor immune system and need to get on top of it. I need to eat better and make looking after myself a focus. I need to stop eating crap and exercise on a regular basis. It’s so simple really – listen to what your body needs and do what it is telling you. Surely…surely I can do this! I have to do this becuse I’m sick of feeling unwell and not being able to live my life how I want to.

I’m excited by the thought of achieving this goal and what it will mean to me – better quality of life, better mum, better partner, better a work, happier etc etc…the possibilities are endless. Yippee.