become more assertive

yesterday i sort of battled. i replied. i can do that when i’m the only other party sometimes. i can do it when i know the turf. i do with l and a. with strangers perhaps i don’t unless i’ve labeled them my enemy.

so i can battle.

i need to also, i guess, question behaviour i don’t appreciate. i need to be able to just say no. perhaps physically.

i have a challenge coming up. i’ll be seeing three or four of the most assertive and least emotionally perceptive people for a few days now. in that i want to be assertive. i want to have my own agenda. i don’t want to shy away. i don’t want to avoid them. i don’t want them getting all the space and fun and benefits. i’m not going to take it lying down so to say. and i’m also not going to make a battle out of it.