tell 43 things about me

17. My favorite restaurant is Sammy’s Pizza (local place). Where I always get four cheese sausage… mmm…. delicious!!!

18. I tend to be selfish. This can be good and bad at times….

19. I work too much, on purpose.

20. guitar hero is my new addiction.

21. I love awkward situtations. I dont make things awkward but when they are… it’s hilarious/joyful!

22. I have 3 people I would trust with my life/trust completely. Does that mean I don’t trust people easily?

23. I want to have 2 dogs when I can afford it.

24. Cats creep me out, you never know what they are thinking.

25. Last semester I got a .86 GPA. I have learned. I must study. I have no motivation because I hate school but I must try! MUST!

26. I am dreading school to start in a week.

27. I will not get to attend the state fair this year. I am sad. No baby pigs. No greasy food. No people watching. Next year for sure!

28. I don’t shower every day.

29. I cut my own hair. becuase it’s straigh and it costs nothing.

30. I am having the hardest time getting over my now ex bf. He just stopped talking to me. We went out for 2.5 years. and had broken up numberous times. But the end we were back to as it was in the very beginning. and then…nothing. No return phone calls. He has my stuff. and it’s been 3 months. I think he has a new gf which, honestly, is fine wiht me cause all I EVER wanted was for him to be as happy as he could be. But not talking to me has made me feel horrible. Like I am worth nothing. Like what we had never existed. I can’t get over it. and it’s not getting better, its getting worst. HelP?

31. I know I am stong. 32. independent. 33. hilarious. 34. gorgeous. 35. blunt. 36. sarcastic. 37. hardworking. 38. fun northern MN girl.

39. I wish that people would be honest with each other like they should!

40. I hope my youngest brother can graduate hs in the next couple years. I wish he would realize how much his family just wants to help him and is not “on his case” all the time.

41. I am mostly optimistic.

42. I love milk.

43. Lake Superior always puts me at ease. I will never fully understand the strenght of the lake or the beauty. It’s power is amazing!

basically when I tell stories I start out with the basics and then get right into telling it but somehow I end up forgetting the point of why I am telling this story so I get the climax of the story and my story basically ends. This is true for most of my family memebers (or so I have been informed). If you ever saw the War of the Worlds (with Tom Cruise) the story climaxes and then ends there is no real “end” to the movie, no reason why you just watched this 2 hours flix, he got his kids safely away from the robots or aliens or whatever it was and roll credits. this my friends is how I tell stories. My “real life” freinds have figured out to laugh or comment basically when we I stop talking, it is something to get used to I guess but it all works out in the end. now where to end this one? oh well…

09. My family includes my Dad and two brothers. They live about 15 minutes aways from me. I love them dearly and wish I had more time to spend with them. My brothers and I are pretty close and I can go to my Dad for anything. It’s good to have a nice strong family.

10. I live in Duluth, Minnesota with 3 roommates. Our house is called the Flipside because the owner we rent from rents about 20-some houses and names them all. I barely talk to two of my roommates but one is one of my closest friends.

11. Girls annoy the crap out of me. I have literally 4 close girl friends, all of which are not friends with each other. Then I would say I probably have maybe 3 other girls I would hang out with. Otherwise I spend my time with guys. Why guys you may ask well for one they play video games, two they are not drama queens (most at least), three they are laid back, four their voices, makeup, dress style, complaining doesnt annoy me, five they are much more simliar in the things they eat, talk aboot, think is fun to do, blah blah blah…. basically boys are cool and girls drool.

12. I however love being a girl. My one real good friend like to call me an attention whore, whihc in some respects in true. She claims I like to hang with boys because the attention they give me is different from girls, which I will agree with.. but is that really that bad?

13. I have a…. well lets just say I’m gonna marry him one day. I love Adam and although we’ve had our real bad points, we have also had our real good points, which out number the bad. He is my best friend, and I love him. (we just dont have a title)

14. My motto: “You see, Bob. It’s not that I’m lazy, it’s just that I dont care.” (from Office Space)

15. I love dogs.

My mom died just a little over 3 years now. It was a complete shock. Story: she didnt have this enzyme in your body that breaks down some drugs (as in this case an anti-depressant) so the doctors kept increasing her dosage as she was not feeling any better over a few months, how the problem was that it was not working but that it wasn’t being broken down and then distributed throughout the body. She was visiting her sister in California and was not feeling well, they took to the hospital and the doctors there thought she was having a reaction to a new alergy medication which she had just changed (due to insurance). She started to feel better, the next day we all talked to her on the phone and the last thing I said was I love you to her (which is good at least). Then, the next morning she was found dead. At least she died in her sleep. However, the autopsy was inconclusive as to what exactly stopped working in her body. She basically died of an overdose (but not on her part, because the enzyme wasnt breaking the medication down, so it built up in her body). Such complications made it hard to take why she had to die.

She died 2/12/03, 3 days before her eldest child, me, would turn 18. I am sad at all the things she will miss and all the questions I will never get to ask her. I have found “replacement” moms for these questions but still she could never be replaced fully. I miss her everyday and especially during hard times. Hard times are always harder for me, being that she was my best friend and my advice giver. After three years it has gotten better but it’s still rough.

I guess I’m not asking for any sympathy comments here because I can deal and I can keep moving on. When she died I wrote a poem to put in that card thing at the funeral. I do NOT write, and I definately do NOT write poems but this one just seems to come to me. One line of the poem says “you’ll watch over us” and I know she is, which is a comforting thought and it’s what i’ve got.

I am ADDICTED to the internet. Literally, when I havent been on all day to check: facebook, myspace, email; or to play: randon games online, or WoW (World of Warcraft, a mmorpg); or to mess around: on 43things, stumbleupon, or just random websearches…. I go through withdraws. It amazes me at how much information, useless or not, is out there.

Okay, so maybe I was a little dramatic and exaggerated just a tad. But I’m sure glad I have the internet… and my Dad’s house still only had dial up (they live in the sticks and cant get anything else). Which is completely ridiculous!

Bottom line: I love the internet and as sad and pathetic (or not) as it might be, its my greatest hobbie!

mountain dew and me are best of freinds. I just love it. if you are addicted like me you will understand. My friends make fun of me because I almost always have one in hand and bring an extra just in case whereever we go. My room is the color of a can. I have a tin sign a friend gave to me hanging in my room. I have a neon yellow sweatshirt of mt dew.

what can i say? i love my dew!

I would almost always (5 out of 7(days a week?)) rather be by myself then with a bunch of people, or even a small group. One person is alright for a couple hours, but I tend to get annoyed by people easily. I have found 2 people my entire life that I have never thought “omg you are annoying” or “go away”. I don’t know if that is normal or not, but that’s how I am.

I guess my main problem with others is how they are fake, try to impress others when it is not necessary, and well annoying because of the previous two statements. I have found that people love to have me around because I am not fake, I say what is on my mind whether you like it or not, straigt-forward and blunt are my ways. I get calls all the time and end up ignoring them because i just dont feel like hanging out. Yet, I am still confused at the fact that if I make people feel so comfortable, relaxed and such; why do they tend to still be fake and annoying?

...And so I sit content at home, by myself, on a saturday night, at my computer/watching a movie and I couldn’t be happier.

I love listening to music. I enjoy almost anything except rap, hip/hop, r&b etc. and of course there are exceptions to the rule. I really like country, Tim McGraw is one of my favorites of all time. Rock is the second best not really any rock specifically though; screamo, metal, rock’n’roll 80’s style, alt rock, punk(though I dont consider this rock.) and all such things. Music is just a wonderful way to escape, relate or even figure things out; it’s background noise and I couldnt live without it. I listen to music all the time therefore that is why it is something about me.

It’s only part time cause I am mostly a student. I currently work at the DECC (Duluth (a city) Entertainment Convention Center) in the catering department. It’s so nice to go to work, most people there are so nice and friendly. I honestly consider them my second family. The DECC is pretty big so there are different departments and such but it’s like one big family. Hilarious, but I love it. I’ve made some good friends there. Adopted a replacement mom. And learned how to work hard but still have fun. I will miss it when I move on but it’s something that will always live with me and therefore it’s something of uber importance!

“Anyone who cannot cope with mathematics is not fully human. At best he is a tolerable subhuman who has learned to wear shoes, bathe and not make messes in the house.” – Lazarus Long

I am a math major. I love math and am a complete geek about it. See picture, if you understand it, you are awesome! Math can explain so many things in our world, it’s like a language and when understood is so fun and exciting!