lose 15 pounds

I kinda gave up on this a little. Not that I dont’ want to do it… I DO. It’s just with planning the wedding everything got put on the backburner including my health. However, since my dress DIDN’T FIT- (OMG) I have lost some weight.I hope to keep it up. I’ve been trying to find a way to excercize seriously three times a week and do light situps and possibly cardio a little every day. I’ve also been trying to count calories even though everything I read says DON’T COUNT CALORIES all over it. But I think that’s what kept me skinny when I was skinny so it clearly works for me. Besides as long as I stay healthy about it I think that’s okay. I’m trying to stay around 1200 on days when I’m not working out and up to 1500 (although sometimes more- when I work out I need to eat right after—sometimes it puts me over by 1 or 2 hundred—plus that helps muscles recover faster) on days when I work out hard. Plus I’ve decided to start focusing more on lifting weights and strength training because while cardio makes me feel better I believe lifting weights will help me get to my goal at a much speedier pace. Not that I want to cut out cardio all together, I just focus less on cardio and more on making my back less bugly in my dress :). I think I have a concrete plan in place now and I’m hoping that I’ll start seeing results soon.

I’m about to give up on this goal. not because I can’t do it, but because my scale stopped working. I hope. I feel like I’m losing weight but the scale says i’m heavier than I have ever been. Can’t be true. Plus, I thought I ordered a 12 in my dress (read, i ORDERED A 12) but it came and was a 10, and it still fits. That means to me, I can’t be as fat as my scale says I am.

alright, back up six pounds. yeah, that stinks but oh well. i’ll just have to work harder to keep it off from now on and even harder than that to get more off. i say to myself muscle weighs more than fat but really, i’m still not happy with where i am at, so making excuses is just silly. i need to keep at this until i am happy with the results.

10 pounds down. on the doctors scale- which always says more than mine. which is okay because it’s right. 10 pounds down, five to go. Eating less. Trying to eat better, but even when I don’t do so great at that, I’m eating less. Stop when I’m full. I don’t finish my plate. Even if it’s really good. (although, sometimes, when it’s really good i do take an extra bite or two).

well my weight loss has kinda stopped in the past few weeks probbaly because my activity level has gone down due to a chronic sinus infection that gives me a pretty debilitating migrane. however, with all this lack of activity i’ve still not gained any weight so i’m counting this as a success for myself. once i’m back to my normal self and am able to get back to my normal work, it will be much easier to lose more weight because i’ll be doing more activity! i’m trying to stay positive so i stay on track on my diet.

lost five pounds. seriously. makes the eating less seem worth it. the girl i talked to about this said that it’d be worth it once i started seeing results… I wasn’t sure I believed her. I do now. It seems worth it since I’m seeing results. My major goal is to loose more than fifteen pounds but I’m starting with this one.

joined weight watchers a few days ago. hopefully i’ll stay with it. it’s beena little hard these first few days. i think i’ll start possibly making dinners for the whole week on one day and then i can freeze and heat them up to eat them later in the week, that way i won’t have to have things that are bad for me and rack up the points.

I’ve so fallen off the waggon. It doesn’t help that when at work we eat on the go at whatever restaurant can give us food the fastest and mind you it’s airport food- so it’s always greasy and fattening. I suppose I could go for salad but I need something that will keep me going through a three hour delay. (it’s wintertime after all). I need to have some will power and bring some healthy alternatives with me- like soup! Soup may not be the healthiest thing in the world to eat but it’s sure better than a wendy’s hamburger. Eating better is probably the only real thing i’d need to do to loose this weight but I think I could stand to get in a little better shape. Most of the hotels we stay at have fitness centers. I need to actively try to wake up and go to them in the morning or go when we get in at night. I always put it off for sleep but one hour won’t be the major factor and I’ll feel better if I just go and do it. I just have to motivate myself to go.

I’ve started riding my bike again. I’m hoping this is one step in the right direction. I’ve been taking many steps back. I’d like to say I’ll start doing situps religiously again, like I’d hoped I would at the beginning of this goal. However, I just don’t believe I will. It honestly takes up too much time in the day when I could be doing..well.. more productive things.

So, I’ve started eating less. Putting smaller portions on my plate. I’ve been eating like a fat person would eat no wonder i kept gaining weight. If I’m at a restaurant I try to eat half of what they give me. I can save the other half and eat it later. Although, it doesn’t always work. I usually eat all of a hamburger if I have one, but it’s not a common occurance so I think I can let that one slide. I don’t want to be super strict with myself or I’ll never do this. Also, instead of working out in a gym every day or anything like that I’ve taken to walking rather far distances when I’m on trips with work. I call it exploring, I get to see new things that I hadn’t previously seen. I don’t know how much it’s helping with my goal, but I know that it makes me feel better- and that can’t really be a bad thing. now, i just have to get to a scale to see how i’m doing. perhaps that should be on my to do list. buy a scale.