get married, stay married, and live happily ever after

ugh. two weeks until the day. Marriage would be better without this wedding BS. I’m finding I’m turning into bridezilla without meaning to—because we’re poor and this is making us poorer… and neither of us wanted this hugeass wedding. Why couldn’t we have spent a quarter of the money and gone off to a beach somewhere? I’d have been happy with that. I’ll be happy with this in my big fancy dress and church too, but really?

small setback. perhaps this isn’t the goal i should be pursuing. maybe i should try to just pursue- be happy. with myself and whatever situation i find myself in.

October 3rd.

I really honestly finally think I have found that one person. Well, I mean, I’m not sure there’s just one person for everyone but I’ve found one of the people I could be with forever and not wonder what else I’m missing out on. And I want to make sure that I give this my all and make this the best relationship it can be. I want to remember daily that I am lucky to have someone who always at the very least wants to understand me, even if he doesn’t always get what I mean or what I want or why I’m doing something. He wants to understand it. And that’s something that I can’t say for everyone. He’s not wrapped up in himself he’s wrapped up in us. And how we can be better. And I want to remember that when I start getting wrapped up in my own head thinking that I have to do something on my own. He’s there with me and we can do it better together.