Do more things that make me happy

I think I can count this as done. I have had a wonderful holiday season. I have not done things I didn’t want to. I am happy, pretty much all the time. Okay, there are days that suck and I’m sick and I don’t want to do anything, but past those few days, I’m happy. I have wonderful people around me who I love to be around, and I spend time with people who make me happy.

I think this includes saying NO to doing things that make me unhappy. The less time I spend doing things that don’t make me happy the more time I have for things that DO make me happy.

How much I like my new job. I’m going on Sunday again and I’m actually looking forward to it. I’m looking forward to working on a Sunday. I wish I could work on Monday-Friday with the people on those days because I really enjoy them, but I enjoy the weekend people too. Just a little less. Either way, I look forward to going in and playing on the computer for a few hours while getting paid and talking to my “coworkers”. :). So, apparently, this is one thing that makes me happy.

So today, I’m just chilling with my bird. Because I worked yesterday and he was lonely. :). I may decide that I should instead leave and go out, but it’s so wwarm in here, I have some tiger lillies on the counter (still from valentines day, it’s been 10 days!!) and some beers in the fridge. Not every day should be a lazy day but once in a while, hanging out with the bird, watching tv, ordering chineese food and reading old books makes for a great day.

Out to breakfast with one of my best friends and then shopping tomorrow! count this as one win in this column! I’m hoping tomorrow will be a 10/10 for a day!

Today was the first day of class. It’s been a long time since I’ve sat in class. Feels foreign, and teachers keep talking to the students (which I suppose is me) as though we have our whole lives ahead of us, as though we are barely out of highschool. I’m going to my 10 year reunion this year I believe (wow). I just feel like I’m too old to be starting over…but I’m here because I have to start over and I’m glad I’m doing it now and not later. It’s going to be hard, but I know it’s worth it.

Have been on the boat two weeks in a row. :). Going to Jimmy Buffett friday, I am extremely excited, because while I’m not exactly a parrothead, I’m still a fan and it should be awesome. AND I’m going back to school FULL TIME finally to just get it DONE and finished and the idea of that being done finally and having my life on a real track towards SOMETHING other than dead end jobs that don’t pay enough and are mindless and terrible … I don’t mind if I don’t love a job every day because you aren’t going to love something every day, if it was that great they wouldn’t have to pay people to do it, but I need something that will make me not hate myself in the morning when I get out of bed to go there. I need something that will make me think “this will be okay”. Knowing I won’t be stuck on one dead end track forever and seeing a light at the end of the tunnel makes me feel a little bit better. Happy, even.

summer school is over! i believe i will have an a, but at the very least i will have a b. so this is a success in my book either way, and something that has made me happy. :). in other news being done for a few weeks is GREAT. Weight off my shoulders. So, now i just have to sign up for more classes that will start in august. next week i’m going in to my new school to do this, get a replacement id, and show them that i live in their district so I don’t have to pay exhorbant amounts of money for one class and can afford to take a few. :). and my friend is coming to visit next wednesday. we’ve cleaned up the house a bit today and once the laundry is all done and put away i’ll be ready to have her over, make some margaritas and then show her the sites (or rather, go to the mall and then eat sushi and then possibly go out to karaoke, it’s a suburb not a city, and i still manage to love it). so wednesday will be AWESOME. before then, we are going to a thing called shake the lake, which if you can’t tell by the name—is hopefully going to be tons of fun on a boat. can’t really wait. and possibly i’m going to try to water ski again on sunday. but we’ll see. i have to work sunday night. so i don’t want to be too drained.

Went out on our boat a few times now. it’s beautiful on the water. I think I’ve smiled more in the last month than in a long time. Started doing whatever comes to my mind when I think about what I’d like to do. Long drives when I’m feeling like I’d like to be alone. Eating lunch at a restaraunt alone (I LOVE eating at restaraunts alone, it’s strange but true), buying food for snacking at aldi’s and not having to feel guilty about it. :). I’ve been in better spirits, and I’m trying to keep it up.

yoga. so that’s one thing. i suppose. and i have a boat so soon i will be boating. :). starting watch royal pains which i enjoy and it makes me giggle. spending time outside lately. so, i guess i’m working on this.