stop drinking alone

Doing very well in the last few weeks. Even with beer in the house.

Almost had a drink. Didn’t.

Full success this weekend! No alcohol in the house and I intend to keep it that way for the time being.

I am both embarrassed and concerned by how difficult this has been.

So yesterday was a crappy day and I wanted a glass of wine.
Go to the grocery store, see that boxes of wine are on sale. Decide that I can indeed buy and I’ll bring it on the weekend trip to share. But later put it back on the shelf. I know that I have no reality check with a box of wine in the house and there is a chance it might not get used over the weekend. I can have a bottle, maybe, because I can see that I’ve drank 1/3 of it and that is enough for one night. And a bottle over a weekend is not excessive. But with a box, I don’t know. So I didn’t buy it. Didn’t want to buy a bottle either. I bought a 22 of a beer I haven’t tried before. Turned out, I didn’t even like it and dumped it after just a few sips.

I’m finding that if I get started with another beverage as soon as I get home, then I don’t even think about having a beer. These days my house is cold when I get home so I’m drawn to the kettle and start some tea and end up drinking cup after cup of tea all evening.

Need to find a way to do this in the warm weather as well, maybe try to always have lemonade in the fridge.

No drinking tonight. Tea only.

Last night after a seriously annoying evening of car trouble, canceled plans, nice strangers, rude strangers, walking in uncomfortable shoes because I forgot my sneakers were in the trunk of my car all along, a missed bus, a mall that closed super early and food court food that burned my throat, I got home at 9:30 (I’d left work at 5:15) and was so tempted for a glass of wine. But I drank chamomile and read a book instead.

This would be a lot easier if the boyfriend wanted to drink more often…

Lets say I’m hanging out with some friends, for example watching the superbowl or bowling. I have 2 beers, so as to not get tipsy and not be able to drive myself home. When I get home, I desire another beer for continued relaxation and to complete the evening. Is that considered drinking alone? If so I am guilty. Repeatedly.