Find a balance between the things I want to do and the things I need to do

to get drunk. i needed to have a great time…i didn’t get drunk, however my mother-inlaw & i killed off a bottle of champagne!!! lol we drank it on the ride home from the Australian Pink Floyd show (we rented a limo cuz none of us want to drive in Boston) i feel so much better about so many things now

this week, i’ll be doing this!!! i’m going on vacation & SOOOOO need the break!
what i want & need are in tune on this trip! lol
and the best part is: i get to be with <3 my hubby Chris <3 for a few days in Hollywood, CA. It’s a music convention for him (send positivity for him, please) and a much needed vacation for me…
and the restaraunt at the hotel has the best fresh fruit smoothiesi’ve ever had!!! i’m looking forward to those!

i can have this balance!!! i have 1 friend coming over tomorrow night, then off to the in-laws, then stay at another friends house, then do (much needed) yard work, then do absolutely nothing in Monday!!!!

for me to put in my 40hrs in 4 days & have a 3 day weekend…that would be better. then i could balance everything alot easier!!! i wouldn’t lose hours or have to use PTO when i need time off for things to get done during the week. and i wouldn’t have to rush around or deal with rush hour traffic if i need to get something done after work (like getting fitted for my bridesmaid dress for my friends upcoming wedding)
my weekends would be more relaxed & the bills would be paid with less stress!!!

buy a house!!!!!
we can’t even discuss adoption while living in this house. there’s no way we’d be approved because of this house and the state it’s in. besides, i doubt it’s structurally sound…. yikes

fits both! and i need it more than i want it!

to find a job very similar to my current position. please understand what i’m saying. i do enjoy what i do, the pay isn’t bad, no nights or weekends, paid vacation and sick time (which i used up in January when i had pneumonia & then last week when i had my wisdom teeth out put me 12 hours under, so i have to borrow against next years so i can actually have my vacation…)
it’s really not a bad place & my clients (for the most part) are pretty cool.
i need the same pay and benefits with less hours.
i need time off from everything. granted, we’re going to the beach for a week, however, it won’t be enough.
i see all these “work from home” things online, and i’m very skeptical of them. they sound tempting but…
i need to make sure that whatever i do my bills are paid (that includes groceries & foremost the care of my cats because they are my babies)
my soul longs for travel and the feeling of vacation-type relaxation every single day. i don’t know any way to realize this portion of this…i need to focus on exactly what i want/don’t want to do because i already know what i need to do (see above)

to be able to pay all my bills & not have to have a job.
yes, i said it! it’s the thing everyone wants but so few people actually say it.
i’m so damn tired of the whole 7-6 thing. i leave the house at 7AM & don’t get home until 6…that’s 11 hours of my day! if i sleep for 8 hours plus getting ready for work in the morning…that’s a total of 20 hours that i can’t live my life to the fullest!
wtf? why does our society demand that we give up life to have someone else telling us what to do? it isn’t right!
it’s no wonder we’re all in such a frenzy to get whereever as fast as possible! we’re rushing ourselves to death!!!
this is stupid!!!!!
I WANT TO LIVE FREELY!!!!!!!

i desparately need a vacation. work is driving me insane. it’s not the job, i love what i do. it’s the lack of co-workers work ethics….
so i’m scheduled off from July 11th to 18th (wisdom teeth) & have said if i’m up to it, i’ll go in before the 18th. truth is: i might go in on Monday the 17th and arrive late on the 18th (suture removal), but i really doubt i’ll be in this week at all.
if i could do my job from home i would!

to offer myself a reward (like today)
i get something done, i get to have or do something that i want to do!
today i got an oil change, cleaned the apt, and reoganized my bureau so i get to go shop for an outfit to wear to the club!